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Thursday, January 26, 2006 | |
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Jakon fever |
D,
Almost everyday sms orang tuh, yes, I confess.....aku lah owang yg paling jakon dlm dunia nie! Excited-mited..sexcited-gited!!!!! How to stay calm,eh? Aku tau, korang ponG terpinga-pinga,kan? kehh kehh kehh.
Ok, nak cool down kejap. Last Tuesday ust BP (briyani power) menjelaskan bab sholat. Aiseyman..Beydah tido dlm kelas!!!! Rosak, ah si Beydah. Tapi dlm tido tuh, Beydah dengar apa yg ust terangkan. Macam kes tido dlm iman laa gituh! It was still about ma'mum. 2 weeks ago pasal ma'mum masbuq- yg masuk sholat jemaah lambat. This time lak, ma'mum muwaafiq - yg sholat on time dgn imam. Bab nie pun penting sebab, ma'mum tak boleh mendahului imam & tak boleh lambat daripada imam. Ini boleh menyebabkan tidak sah sholat jemaah itu. Bila ma'mum lambat menghabiskan AlFatihah atau imam tercepat membacanya, ma'mum diberi tempoh hingga sebelum imam bangun dari sujud kedua. That means, pergerakan itu boleh ditinggalkan ma'mum & terus ikut pergerakan yg imam lakukan seterusnya.
Kemudian, kita beralih kpd rukun sholat yg lain. Ust menekankan peri pentingnya thuma'ninah dlm sholat. Dlm 1 hadith, Rasulullah mengatakan, sejahat-jahat pencuri ialah pencuri di dlm sembahyang. Sebab, kita nak cepat-cepat habis. Dlm setiap pergerakan sholat, kita mesti thuma'ninah (pause for a few seconds). Inilah cara tertib ketika bersholat.
Memang aa, bab belajar fardhu ain memang nampak ajer chicken-kedodol. Tapi bila kita menghalusinya..mak dikau!!! Vely-the-cheem. Boleh tido tersengguk-sengguk. Aku prasan laa, ust nampak aku tido..tapi memang aku kalah...suddenly so tired. Then ust, kasi soalan cepumas kat kiter....ni kes nak ilangkan ngantokz aa....dia kata, eh saya pun dah penat nie..kasi chan awak semua cakap pulak laaa. kekekeeeee. Ust BP nie, kaklar jugak owangyer.
Habis ajer kuliah, cepat-depat minum air teh o yg disediakan. Haa....lega sket. Jumper Fidel, bilang dia - eh, i tak ley tahan aa tadi..I tido tau!!! Banyak kali lak tuh! He - eh, i pun tertido-tido jugak,keh..keh..keh. Apalagi, kiter ponG dok kat keday kopi sebelah masjid. Aku ponG togok 1 gelas teh tarek!
Moral of the story.....sebelum Asar kene tido kejap. Jadi malam tak ngantokz sangat. Eeee...dah Thursday!!! Yeh, yeh.....nanti Saturday, Beydah nak jumper Jeynab & Kiah. Petang lak nak jumper Tipah, maybe kucing nak ikut. InsyaAllah. Jom, gi Al Istighfar, 5 petang. 1st lesson on tafsir Juz Amma,tau. Ustz Rock nak jelaskan Surah AnNas -Qul a'udzubirabbinnaas.
Cakap pasal kucing, semalam baru blog pasal dia. Then terserempak dia kat online. Kiter ponG chat sekejap. Dia tak suker pakai chat, dia suruh aku call dia sebab dia tengah kopi-brek. Dia ponG luahkan perasaan tentang member lama. Aku heran jugak aa..asal member lama perangai lemau. Dan sekarang dah jadi macam personal sebab anak-anak ponG terbabit. Aku rasa member tuh mesti tak tau apa anak dia dah buat. Haiz..apa nak jadi,eh? Kucing kata sekarang member makin keyreyk. Owang sekeliling naik borinG dgn dia, cuma dia ajer yg tak perasan owang dah meluat. Kesian aa..aku tak tau apa nak cakap. Bagi aku kalo tak jumper dia lagi ponG tak per laa. Tapi sedih jugak laa. Sebab, zaman kuno dulu, kiter sumer rapat. Sekarang, camner sibokz ponG at least once a year aku carik jugak, tanya khabar. Kekadang kucing ponG carik aku. I guess, masa merubah segalanya. Sedihkan, kalau perubahan itu merugikan diri sendiri...?
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 06:07 #
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006 | |
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I'm bored..can't you see? |
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2nd entry for the day. Walhal keje berlambak. Actually, I've been wanting to cook soft Polenta or bake some Cornbread. So I search high & low for the best recipe. Nak makan style omputih u........! Dah lama tak masak fattening food. I need to un-excite myself er..don't get me wrong laaa. Hopefully, something exciting is going to happen soon, but I don't want to get carried away. Kang macam angan matjenin, baru padan muker gua!! So I'm trying to look busy..macam takder aper-aper gituh. Makin aku nak elak, makin excited aku jadinyer..macam nak meletup!!!! Ish.....Tipah, ko diam eh..ko jgn nak canon aku!!!!!! Ish...geram sey....lermekk tak ley tahan....menggelitis aku dibuatnyer!!!!!
OK Divert - hari Ahad yg lalu, ustz rock cakap kita mesti ingatkan diri kita & juga pada anak-anak akan kepentingan rukun iman. Sekarang kita dah sampai part percayakan malaikat. Anak-anak harus diajarkan mempercayai malaikat & tugas-tugas mereka. Pendekkan cerita, Allah mengizinkan malaikat memelihara manusia. Seperti contoh, wanita yg hamil biarpun dia seorang yg kafir atau mengandung anak luar nikah, kanak-kanak. Allah memberi manusia itu sesuatu samada baik atau buruk melalui perantaraan. Perantaraan itu adalah melalui malaikat. Malaikat menggerakkan naluri manusia utk memberi yg baik mahupun yg jahat kpd manusia lain.
Sebab itu, kita disuruh berbuat baik sesama manusia, berterimakasih kpd orang yg telah menggembirakan kita. Ustz pun kasi contoh lagik, malaikat ni sebenarnya banyak. Macam Jibril dah pencen..tak ada wahyu nak disampaikan. Israfil belum start keje....kan keje dia tiup trumpet...haaa! Agak-agak kita dah sedia lom bila Israfil tiup trumpet. Mungkar & Nakir paling dekat dgn kita....jorang ada standby ajer nak tulis tick atau pangkah. Aku rasa jorang laa yg banyak pakai pensel & eraser or pen & liquid paper!!!! Izrail ponG busy giler sey!!! Bayangkan on average laa kan..kat S'pore paling sikit org Islam yg meninggal 7, paling banyak 12 dlm sehari. Tu belum orang kafir. Tu belum 1 dunia...bayangkan....!!!!!! Korang ingat Izrail ajer yg cabut nyawa? Biler nak game sey....kejap-kejap gi sini..ketik (sound effect cabut nyawa) lepas tuh gi sana...ketik..lepas tuh..eh braper banyak tempat daa???? So......rupanya, Izrail nie macam supervisor laa. Dia ada para assistant yg tolong ketik-kan nyawa manusia.
Rukun iman yg ke 3 - percaya pada kitab-kitab Allah. Zabur diturunkan kpd Nabi Daud, Taurat - Nabi Musa, Injil - Nabi Isa 'alaihissalam, Al Quran - Nabi Muhammad saw. Al Quran mengandungi 30 juzu', 114 surah, 6616 ayat, 77,430 kalimat & 325,345 huruf serta mengandungi sebanyak 500 ayat-ayat hukum menurut pendapat Imam Ghazali & lain=lainnya. Ustz berpesan, bacalah AlQuran..jgn eksyen nak baca kitab lain bila AlQuran masih terkial-kial. Tak salah nak baca kitab lain, tapi tentukan yg diri tu dah power dgn Al Quran baru ley eksyen baca yg lain. Yg sedihnya ramai sekali orang kita yg sudah menganut Kristian tanpa mengubah nama....example nama masih Temah, Senah, Ahmad tapi sudah tak Islam.
Ustz pesan, hidupkan AlQuran di dlm rumah. Rumah tidak ada cahaya jika kita tak baca Al Quran. Dan lazimkan diri membaca tafsir selepas membaca surah. Ikutilah kelas Tafsir. Ustz kasi tip - setiap hari baca surah Al Baqarah di dlm rumah. Yg the 1st 5 ayat & the last 5 ayat boleh, Ayat Kursyi, boleh. Selalunya dlm buku Al Mathurat ada beberapa potong ayat dari surah AlBaqarah.
Dlm keterangan buku yg ditulis oleh Ustaz Ismail Kamus, pahala membaca 1 huruf dari AlQuran :
dlm sholat - 100 kebajikan
di luar sholat & di dlm wudhu - 50 kebajikan
tanpa wudhu - 10 kebajikan
Masa-masa yg diutamakan membaca AlQuran ialah di waktu tengah malam hingga fajar (paling utama).
Di antara Maghrib & Isya'
Sesudah sholat Subuh.
Teringat pesanan ustz ngaji, beli AlQuran dibukukan secara 1juzu', jadi kesemuanya 30 buku. Selepas AlFatiha pada rakaat pertama & kedua, peganglah AlQuran itu & baca 1-2 mukasurat. Bayangkan pahalanya. Ustz Unser ponG kasi tip...beli AlQuran yg BESAR...... sekali, beli bookstand yg macam org choir nyer,haa, lepas tuh baca dlm sholat. Gerek, kan???
Ok, dah ilang excitement aku.....haa..lega sket.
Bismillahirrahma nirrahiim...I love You, Allah. Thank You, Allah.
Amaciam...? Dah lap-lip-lap-lip lom? Dah dapat lightbulb moments? Kalo belom..gi carik lilin dari taik telinga Shrek!!!!!!!!
Kwang kwang kwang.
Finally, I've watched Under The Tuscan Sun on dvd. Golek-golek aku ketawa! Si Fidel ponG tumpanG sekaki..mula-mula sibokz dgn laptop dia..lama-lama, Diane Lane nyer pasal, stop jugak tengok, walhal dia dah tengok citer ni kat aeroplane! One thing about Diane Lane, kalo dia buat love scene...haiz ley ngidam owang dibuatnyer! Tonight nak return to VideoEzy..pls soldaduz..jgn ikot ley tak? Ehem..mak dia nak jadi ala Diane Lane lak!!!!! Kalo tak Diane Lane....Diane Lorong ponG ley laa, mak dia tak cerewet!
Slaps forehead..yeynadeh! Baru kasi lightbulb moments, dah buang tebiat!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 15:58 #
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Sometimes..... |
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I was reading kucing's blog. I'm so happy for her. I can feel she being blissfully married.....for the second time. I'm so touched with the piece of advice coming from her heart. What she wrote is true. Sometimes you wonder what does your partner see in you. What makes you so special in his eyes? Kucing is right. Being beautiful doesn't mean you have it all. Beautiful people are a lonely lot. Being beautiful doesn't mean you possess the love of your life till the end of time. Kucing was giving example of beautiful lonely woman - Fauziah Latiff,Nora Shamsudin,Sheila Majid,Noraniza Idris,Camelia,Erra Fazirah. Although the 1st three have remarried, but can you see the pattern? Let's travel far.....over to Hollywood - Renee Zellweger,Nicole Kidman,Tyra Banks,Uma Thurman.
A beautiful woman is a man's business goal. She becomes the trophy wife. The man finds another. He says, "she's all I want in a woman". He admits that his wife is so much better than the other woman in all aspects, but somehow, he sees & feels that the other woman is the one. So now, do you want to be beautiful? Don't you think not-so-beautiful ones finally have it all? I remember this quote - "good girls go to heaven, bad girls go everywhere".
It's sad but it's cold hard truth. I guess it's still better to have loved than not loved at all. At least you know how it feels. But where do broken hearts go?
Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough
Words and music by PATTY SMYTH and GLEN BURTNIK
I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Cause baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Sometimes.......
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 09:12 #
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006 | |
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This one's for you.... |
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I'm one happy bunny this evening. I know that 1 day, I'll be writing about her. I guess tonight's the night. The moment I saw her online, I quickly grabbed her. I miss her so much. Ceh.....I've not met her at all. How can you miss someone you've never met before? But I do miss her, lots.
I'm talking about Del. She's an active mommy in online forum boards. We've never met, but fate happened to bond us as friends. I consider her as my friend, I don't know why. At 1st I was afraid if she has negative thoughts about me. But I'm being myself. So the story goes, heh...I guess she likes me too lah. She was staying in Japan for sometime but she has moved to the States. Since then, I've not seen her online. So chatting online with her nowadays is always a pleasant surprise. She's a very talented woman. I admire her scrapbooking talents, she's a good cook. Because of her, I got to know another online friend who's into scrapbooking, too. Luckily, this one's staying in SG. I've yet to meet her.
Del is an interesting person. I learn from her experiences. I hope to meet her some day. Del, excuse me laa....sometimes I blog in Malay. Can't help it. But tonight's entry is for you.
I'm sorry for not keeping in touch
But I always think of you
I'm sorry for not being there
But I hope the little time we share
Is enough to make you feel a little bit better
I miss not meeting you online
Cos each time we meet
You make my days brighter
Take care dear friend
You are always on my mind......
Love,
Auntie PCP - yeah, that's PorCuPine to you. Lucky not CCB - ConCuBine, ceh!
Wei, Del...you're so lucky!!! Suddenly I'm feeling so poetic tonight. Suddenly my fingers just kept on typing the words.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 23:14 #
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Renovation |
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Aku renovate blog. Dah pikiak puas-puas. So my archives are back sebab nak carik bab kuliah senang sket. Letak balek komen box sebab-musabab tertentu.
Hati aku nie tengah dag-dig-dug......tergendang-gendang debarannya. Jadi ker tak? Betol ker nie? Allah saja yg tahu. Bercelaru pulak memikirkan agenda-agenda yg tak sudah. Bingitz!!!!! Tulah, dah lama tak gi Yoga....si gengz sumer tunggu aku bersuara. Lermekk....aku tengah lemau laa! Nak gi Allshapes ponG terkial-kial.
Semalam aku teleponG Jeynab. Ketawa berdekah-dekah dgn dia. Aku citer pasal blog abanG dia. Golek-golek sey aku ketawa. Kesian aku...dah tak mysterious lagik!!!! Tak sangka boleh berbual thru blog. Aku rasakan, kalo jumper Abang Bartley tuh, aku sure bungkus muker macam ninja turtle...sumer tutup, nampak mata jerk!
At the same time tak sabaw nak jumper Jeynab. There's so much to talk about. Rindu giler aku dgn dia. InsyaAllah, it's a date. Damn...! stress sey aku pikiak pasal minggu depan..!!!!!! OK ker tak eh?????
Ya Allah, show me a sign that it'll be all ok, please......
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 10:01 #
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The Chorus Line....not!!! |
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The chores seem endless. As I was getting ready last Friday, Kiah sms-ed saying she couldn't make it. That gave me the chance to start with the bedrooms & my bathroom. Went to Geylang at noon. Han & Hin wanted to tag along to VideoEzy. So, no chance for a cuppa.
It was 0615hrs...in his bedroom voice he asked if I wanted to do marketing. Heh, I had to get up anyway, so off we zoomed to the ole' pasar Geylang. Yeah it's something we enjoy doing together, as if we're on a date. Makan meesiam mamak sepinggan, air teh segelas....giggling away & teasing each other. Hm....we're so gonna miss this dirty ole' pasar!
I was late for kuliah @ Ansar. He sent me there & was a willing soul to clean the fresh food & store them in the freezer while I sat comfortably listening to the lecture. He was still cleaning & packing the stuff when I called, only then he realised he was late. Little things such as these just melt me away. We've decided to repair the luggage. Since we had spare time, we walked to Taka & Paragon. I, so wanted to use the shopping voucher. Heh.....I can shop groceries for free @ The Market Place!!! I was enjoying myself so much, we bought those exotic & expensive foodstuff like Smoked Salmon, Comstock Blueberries, Ghirradelli Cocoa, Blue Cornmeal & more.
I spent the rest of the day cooking. Phew.....!
I was late for Sunday kuliah, again! It was a blast going there & meeting up with Tipah. Since I had to attend walimatulurus, Tipah had went shopping all by herself!! We intend to attend ustz Rock's new class @ Istighfar every Saturday @ 5pm. It'll be Tafsir Al Munir which ustz Unser uses, too....guess what??? She'll be using the wasiat Rasulullah's too!!!!! Yipee! Lets just hope the men & boys are willing to attend & listen, too.
After walimatulurus, we fetched the boys & went home straight. I kept myself tucked in my bed the whole afternoon watching the past shows on tape. I was tired for no reason.
And Monday's halfway done.....still so much to be done. I was a happy bunny when I managed to spend an hour @ AllShapes & stopped by at Nora's. I got what I needed. Just the other day I told him that Gap is coming to town. So tak yah susah-susah kirim barang kat dia lagik...but of coz laa it'll be expensive. He said, tak heran aa...macam brand biasa jugak aper....nothing great laaa tu Gap. Cet...! eksyen....! I'm eyeing the Gap jeans, laa, dey.
Back to real life. Muharram bakal menjelang.....dah beli eraser tu rub the pangkahs kat buku lama???
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 14:42 #
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Agenda..... |
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Must get rid of my lemau-ness. Enough of this crap, laa.
Today - Meet Kiah @ Geylang. Either we makan gado-gado kat Kak Munah or Rojak Mamak or Mee Siam Mamak kat lorong kecik tuh.
Beli buku Dr Aidh Al Qarni.
Beli suji kat Karachi (kalau ada), beli bungkus capati kat Karachi or HarYasin.
Die-die must do housework today.
Masak daging korban..embekkkkk!!!! Hm..dalca wud be nice..ammakk!
Die-die must do housework today....another reminder!
Malam....merendek kat Siglap, kalo bebudakz tak ikotz, ley dok kat joint & have a cuppa.
Saturday - gi cuci diri luar/dalam. Dating dgn ustz Unser kat AlAnsar. Lepas tuh adhoc program.
Sunday - double cleansing dgn ustz Rock kat DarulAman. Either kayuh basikal tua or gi walimatulurus. Lepas tuh adhoc program.
Next week mesti masok gym siksa diri!!!!!! Kene siksa diri for about 1 week sebab aku rasa aku takkan control makan for the following week. Heh......jgn lupa Muharram is around the korner....apakah azam anda????? Agak-agak boleh padam tak semua pangkah kat buku tahun nie?
Heh....bagus jugak eh tulis agenda.....haa kan, baru aku sedar yg aku plan nie sumer mengarut. Hai labi......!!!! Asal laa bengap sangat?!?! Astaghfirullah.....Muharram is around the korner!!!!! Lermekkk!!! Ish, nak padam pangkah nie!!!! Malu sey kalo buku aku kotor bila malaikat bawak naik!!!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 06:15 #
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Thursday, January 19, 2006 | |
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Eekz..so lemau!!!! |
D,
I tell you, I'm so lemau. I'm going through this phase.....hate housework big time! I need something to motivate me to do it.
Supposed to meet AZ for lunch. Ended just me with Kiah. Maybe next week ah, AZ. Kiah was commenting about my face. Yeah..the ole' face. She was trying hard to be plan my dressing for-you-know-what-event. I'm excited but at the same time, the plan might be cancelled. Never mind laa....doa & tawakkal.
Kiah mentioned about her son. From my observation, he's becoming a responsible person as time passes by. Yeah, I agree with Ita - we're confident that he'll take good care of Kiah. Kiah has been doing a good job raising her son.
Still feeling so lemau....maybe a cuppa Hershey hot chocolate will do it.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 14:55 #
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006 | |
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Continuation... |
sambungan....
page 51.
Dari surah Yusuf 53:
Dan aku tidak membebaskan diriku(dari kesalahan), kerana sesungguhnya nafsu itu selalu menyuruh kpd kejahatan, kecuali nafsu yg diberi rahmat oleh Tuhanku.
Dasar-dasar utk mengubati penyakit jiwa :
1.Meringankan perut dari makan. Biarlah sederhana, jgn tamak ikut sedap mulut.
2.Mengembalikan kpd Allah semua halangan yg dialami. Contoh - jika ada hutang, cepat selesaikan.
3.Menjauhkan diri dari tempat-tempat yg dikhuatirkan dapat menjerumuskan dirinya. Contoh casino.....macam Genting Highland gitu. Atau gi shopping time masuk waktu sholat.
4. Sentiasa isitghfar & selawat kpd Rasulullah tatkala sendiri mahupun bersama orang ramai.
5.Berkawan dgn org-org yg menunjukkan jln kpd Allah atau atasa dasar perintah Allah ketika dia tidak ada.
Di dlm buku ini, aku tertarik dgn nasihat di bawah ini.
Syeikh Abu'l Hasan Asy Syadzili berkata, "Kekasihku berpesan kpdku, "jgnlah engkau melangkahkan kedua kakimu kecuali ke tempat di mana engkau dapat mengharapkan redha atau pahala Allah. Jgnlah engkau duduk kecuali di tempat engkau aman dari maksiat kpd Allah. Jgnlah engkau berkawan kecuali dgn org yg dapat membantumu taat kpd Allah. Dan jgnlah berkumpul dgn org-org kecuali dgn org-org yg dapat menambah rasa keyakinanmu, & org itu sangatlah sedikit."
"Org yg menunjukkan dunia kpdmu, dia menipumu. Org yg menunjukkan perbuatannya kpdmu,dia akan membuatmu letih. Org yg menunjukkan Allah kpdmu, dialah yg akan menasihatimu."
Ulasannya ialah, jika kita bercampur dgn org yg suka togeder-geder tapi bual kosong, tak mendatangkan ilmu...tu main wayang namanya. Boleh buat gathering, tapi biarlah pertemuan itu bernas & mendatangkan ilmu pada semua. Jika kita bercampur dgn org yg suka bangga diri, selalu story dia buat baik sana-sini, lama-lama kita jugak bosan..asik citer dia ajer.....Yg last tuh.....patut ah - org yg sering beri perangsang utk buat/fikir baik tu lah sahabat sejati.
"Jadikanlah taqwa sebagai tanahairmu,nescaya tidak akan mendatangkan keburukan, melainkan justeru membahagiakan jiwa selama tidak kau nodai dgn keburukan, dosa, atau lenyapnya rasa takut pada Allah."
3 hal yg merupakan akar dari penyakit musibah & celaka :
A: Org-org menjadi fakir kerana 5 hal.
1.Lebih membesarkan kebodohan dari ilmu pengetahuan.
2.Bangga dgn ilmu pengetahuannya.
3.Tidak ingin menyoal.
4.Bangga dgn cara-cara dirinya sendiri.
5.Terburu-buru ingin mendapat rezeki tanpa syarat.
B: Selanjutnya mereka mendapat 5 macam cubaan.
1.Mengutamakan bid'ah dpd sunnah. (bid'ah - yg takder diada-adakan).
2.Mengikuti org-org yg batil, bukan yg benar - ikut guru yg tak bertauliah yg kemudiannya menuduh para ulama yg berwibawa itu salah/bodoh.
3.Menggunakan hawa nafsu dlm segala urusan atau urusan-urusan yg penting.
4.Mencari yg sementara bukan yg hakiki.
5.Menuduh tanpa kebenaran.
C: Lalu tampillah mereka dgn 5 macam ciri.
1.Merasa was-was dlm ibadah.
2.Mengutamakan adat.
3.Suka berfoya-foya.
4.Bangga diri.
5.Bersahabat dgn perhiasan dunia. Contohnya - kebendaan, wanita & anak-anak.
Semoga kita semua dapat lightbulb moments, Amin InsyaAllah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 09:26 #
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Decision time...again. Hati mau baik, berrk. |
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Received a pleasant surprise, or not. It really depends on how one takes it. Now, I've to think deep & hard. Eeks...I hate the feeling - to do or not to do???? Not much time left. So much to plan.
Luck was on our side last night. Had a good parking spot. As we were entering the masjid, we saw ust making his way to the auditorium, too. I guess he sensed we're newcomers. Lucky I bought extra karching$ coz they set up a booth & sold books used by ust for kuliah.
This week was Tasauf. 1st lesson for us under his wing. They've advanced to page 51. But ust was so kind to backtrack & summarize the definition of tasauf & its importance. And boy...I took down notes like a reporter.
Ust menerangkan - dunia ini penuh dgn masalah. Namun manusia boleh menghadapinya hanya dengan kebersihan jiwa. Sebab itu sholat, zikir & baca Quran itu penting dlm kehidupan seharian kita. Tanpa tiga perkara ini, hati kita tidak akan tenang. Sudah tentu tempat mendapat ketenangan adalah masjid, apalagi jika sholat jemaah.
Manusia boleh menunjukkan ketenangan secara zahir tapi jika tidak ada tasauf, rohani kita akan sering kucar-kacir. Apabila kita belajar tasauf, akan timbullah kemurnian jiwa. Satu hadith Rasulullah bermaksud - Allah itu cantik & suka kpd kecantikan. Sebab itulah, manusia yg kuat imannya akan sentiasa kelihatan cantik & kemas. Tak semestinya dari barang yg mahal. Dengan itu, betapa remuk hati kita, kecantikan diri akan menyerlah kerana ada tasauf di dlm diri kita.
Bila jiwa sudah rosak, manusia tidak mampu hidup dlm kenikmatan. Bayangkan jika di dunia ini kita kelihatan seperti punya ramai kenalan, pergi gathering sana-sini, berkaum-puak tapi pada hakikatnya kita sendiri - sahabat yg benar menyayangi kita boleh dikira dgn jari, maka bayangkanlah hidup di alam akhirat. Tidak ada sesiapa yg menyayangi kita.
Namun jika di dunia ini, kita menyayangi manusia, punya ramai sahabat yg rapat & mereka menyayangi kita, alangkah beruntungnya. Sebab nanti di alam akhirat, bukan sahaja kita disayangi oleh para sahabat & keluarga kita, para malaikat, nabi & Allah sayangkan kita juga.
Ust menerangkan tentang nafsu. Sesungguhnya nafsu itu sentiasa menyuruh manusia buat jahat. Ada ahli ulama membahagikan 4 tingkatan nafsu:
1. Ammarah
2. Lauwamah
3. Mul hamah
4. Mut ma innah
1. Ertinya jahat. Setiap perbuatan yg dilakukan dlm kategori jahat - umpat, bohong, curi & sebagainya. Dlm tingakatan ini bila kita dah buat jahat, kita kesal. Tapi kita selalu kesal sambal. Sebab bila kita makan pedas, kita tobat tak nak makan lauk pedas lagi. Tapi bila esoknya, pedas tu dah hilang, kita nak makan lagi. Kekesalan yg begini merugikan manusia itu sendiri.
2. Ertinya cela/marah. Bila kita dlm ammarah, kita kesal. Sekaligus, kita harus marah/cela/kutuk diri kita kerana berperangai sedemikian. Bila kita sudah memarahi diri kita sendiri, maka bertafakurlah (musahabah/reflect). Berdiam diri itu lebih baik dari ibadah sunnat 60 tahun. Sebab itu kita disuruh berdiam diri jika tidak boleh bercakap benar. Jgn suka mengatakan orang itu jahat atau sebaigainya. Diri kita dah cukup bagus ke? Sebab itu kita harus membasahi lidah kita dgn zikir agar dapat mencegah mulut kita dari mengeluarkan kata yg menyakitkan hati orang lain.
Dalam ugama lain pun ada bab musahabah diri/tafakur. It's called meditaion. Macam dlm yoga. Dlm keadaan tafakur, kita disuruh fikirkan kerosakan yg telah kita buat yg merosakkan orang lain. Kemudian fikir bagaimana hendak membersihkan diri kita. Ingat - buat salah pada Allah, kita minta ampun pada Allah. Dan Allah akan ampunkan. Tapi buat salah dgn manusia, manusia itu saja yg dapat maafkan kita.
3. Ertinya masukkan ilham iaitu masukkan syariat Allah/peraturan Allah dlm diri kita. Kita dah lalui 1st stage- ammarah, then kita ke 2nd stage - lauwamah. So now, kita kena ikut peraturan Islam. Yg penting dlm kehidupan seharian ialah sholat, zikir, baca Quran. Makin banyak Allah beri nikmat, makin banyaklah kita kena beribadah. Tapi selalunya terbalik - org yg lebih susah itu yg banyak beribadah,mengangkat tangan berdoa,minta pertolongan Allah. Yg senang-lenang makin jauh dgn Allah.
Kita mesti ingat Allah boleh menarik balik nikmat yg telah diberikanNya serta-merta. Kadangkala, Allah tak tarik nikmat itu dari kita, tapi nikmat itu ada pada kita cuma kita tidak dapat merasakan nikmat itu. Seperti contoh - kita ada gelang emas, tapi tak boleh pakai sebab allergic. Atau kita panjang umur tapi sakit.
4. Ertinya tenang. Apabila kita sudah merubah hidup kita dengan mengikut syariat Allah, maka datanglah ketenangan. Bila kita sudah tenang, maka apa saja masalah yg datang, nescaya kita dapat menghadapinya sebab kita yakin Allah bersama kita - sebab kita bawa Allah ke mana saja kita pergi. Seperti contoh, kita pergi holiday. Kita cari masjid, tempat makan halal, ada masyarakat Islam atau tidak. Jgn asyik pakai "darurat" saja. Bawalah sejadah, compass. Pentingkan Islam dlm diri kita di mana saja kita berada. Ingatlah, ketenangan tidak dapat kita beli.
Bersambung.........
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 06:34 #
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006 | |
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Clogged...Unclog |
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After Hin's Iqra session, I've decided to go to East Coast for a ride. Linda, was interested to join. So we met again @ 0930, took a cab headed to McDonalds'. Shafie & Hin have been friends since Linda joined my Quran recital class. This was baby Sirhan's 1st bicycle ride. He's only 7mts old. Sitting in front of his mama, he was enjoying the ride. With the wind blowing on his chubby face, he was soon asleep. Ah yes...it was indeed a de-stressing mode. We cycled for 45 mins, had brunch @ McCafe & went home. I intend to do this with Hin on alternate weeks. Insya'Allah next week, it'll be his brothers' turn.
I'm having breakouts. Yup...the ole' face is so stressed. I hate clogged/choked skin!!! Had to see Florence...so there goes the Kar-Ching$!!!!!! Enough stress, why should my well being take a backseat?!?! She sms-ed me & to fix the time, fetched me & we zoomed to the salon. She's 13years older than me with great skin sans the makeup. She's a great friend, indeed. She knows just how desperate I am if I called her in urgency & she's very accomodating. Our friendship - money is not the issue, it's the bond that counts. As she was repairing my face, she told me about 2 women who are in the same business. She taught them how to use the products, the laser machine - all that they need to know. Soon after, 1 charges 1 facial @ $500. Another woman charges $1k for 4 eye treatments. Wahliao!!!!! Florence told me - heart pain. Gosh!!!!! And when some think Florence's charges are steep. She told me a client from 1 of these women got to know about Florence. She came to have her treatment done by Florence once & since then she has stopped going to the other salon. Florence charges way much cheaper & her session is long.
So I'm feeling less stressed now. Gonna watch Golden Globe Awards & do my ironing at the same time.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 06:56 #
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What day is it...? |
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And it's Monday already.
I miss my Tuesday waffles & icecream @ Gelare with them. But we don't want to miss the Tuesday class which we just joined. You win some, you lose some. Come to think of it, they're not into Gelare so much nowadays. Heh...maybe I can still have my treat..hehehehe....when they're in school!!!!!
Saturday -Went to Kak Asna's house. Learned the technique of self massage neck & shoulder, collected the Lampe Berger oils. Finally, after months without them. True enough, after mixing Lotus with Eucalyptus - it smells so much better. Afternoon was trip to Parkway, Popular & hawker centre. A few doses of sugarcane juice, milo dinosaur & Selegie soyabean drink. I thought of having the usual Kway Teow Kuah at the mamak stall, changed my mind & tapau-ed Soup Kambing instead. We just lazed at home for the rest of the night.
Sunday - Breakfast at Kembangan....hm the standard has dropped. Sent them to the madrasah & off to our individual activities. While he was at the driving range, I had a good hour of cycling @ East Coast. I miss rollerblading. In fact, we were supposed to have 1 more lesson but I guess it's null & void now. I think I shall have mom & boys time on a weekday. The park is not crowded & we can choose to cycle or rollerblade.
Lunch at Parkway, again......got our stuffs & headed home. Just before he left for his weekly jog & car cleaning session, I asked if we could have fine dining in the evening since the boys wanted to watch The Tuxedo. Heh.....he bought Soto Ayam for them & we zoomed. It was a great evening. He said - it's been a long time since we dined like this. Me - heh? you never asked me. He - but you know right? Me - you'll never know unless you ask. Yup, for a moment there it was a bliss. We dressed up, we ate, but hardly talk. I guess we don't need to. Yeah...we've not been to fine dining for a long time. The best part was instant confirmation on last minute reservations, 50% off dining charges & free parking!
Yeah, make something out of nothing. Take charge, make the best of the situation when you still have the opportunity.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:34 #
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Can you feel the lemau-ness? |
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Yeah...2nd entry for the day...again!!!!
Baked the chocolate chocolate chips. Managed to steal some time to be with Kiah. Off to Compass Point for early lunch. Before Pizza Hut opened its doors, we had a cuppa at Satrbucks & a slice of Mango Cheesecake. I told Kiah, I'm beginning to be like Pai - must have cake with my cuppa. And can you imagine if I visit Pai...? I'll be as fat as Miss Piggy within days!!!!!!!!!
It was a precious moment meeting Kiah. We've come to a stage where we feel we'll be able to face the inevitable, with the littlest faith in us, we believe things happen for a reason. We've come to terms that we need to react when the signals are up. We believe that doa & good faith walk hand in hand.
I told Kiah of the latest news, she was disappointed. But I told her, I take it as a blessing in disguise. I strongly believe that it happens for a reason. I'm sure Allah is protecting me. Allah is preparing me for something & something better is coming my way. Gosh....it's so hard!!!!! Sometimes I wonder how I survive another day of uncertainty. Then I take a few minutes to sit & think......I guess this is when doa & wirid come in useful. It's for me to face these days. Yup...it's so exhausting - day in, day out - never ending, but strange as it seems, I appreciate it. Experience has made me rich.
Heh, Tipah. You always tell me that you wonder how I take it. I don't know...I really don't know. I wonder, too. Now, I feel like crying. I feel like screaming my head off. I feel like killing my biggest enemy..stabbing over & over again, run as hard & as far as I can until all my energy used up. I'm feeling the palpitations rushing in.
Or is it chocolate craving???????
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 15:29 #
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Can you feel the love? |
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I watched The Wedding Date a few days ago. Yeah, I'm so into this mushy movies. I need to be in this fairytale land sometimes. 2 lines that caught me :
I miss you if I've not met you at all.
I'd rather fight with you than make love to someone else.
haiz..............
Went to VideoEzy last night & rented Monster In Law & Million Dollar Baby.
I'm craving......I miss my chocolate drink ritual. I was such in a bad mood. No choice, Hershey will do. Bought 3 tubs of Ben & Jerry's at petrol kiosk last night. specifically told them 1 tub for Iz & Id, 1 tub for Han & Hin & 1 tub for Daddy & Mommy. This is a monthly indulgence. In the wee hours just now, I baked chocolate muffins. I'm going to my kitchen soon after I finish up typing this entry. Wanna bake chocolate chocolate chip cookies. It's long way overdue. Ah....not forgetting Chocolate Cornflakes Meringues. I owe that to Iz big time.
Both Pai & I were so excited yesterday. We've been sms-ing. I'm missing JunG. She's stopped writing since she takes up her new interest. She's a damn good photographer. I must learn from her. Haiz....I miss my girls.
Change channel....
I know, I'm living in this crazy world. At times I can be at my lowest low & sometimes I'm at my highest high. I hope I can through life without any hatred & revenge against others, especially towards the people I'm bonded to. Life is just too short. I hope my loved ones will come to terms to why I do the things I do. At times it's their actions that make me react. But I believe Allah will never harm us. Allah knows best.
Kepahitan itulah penawar.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:33 #
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Thursday, January 12, 2006 | |
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Watch Out For The Signs..... |
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It was a huge relief. I woke Kiah up. She was in a melek-melek mood due to the rain. I needed her opinion so much. So.....sort of decided I'm gonna do it. Heh...nothing serious laa. Now, just wait & see if Allah permits it.
We talked. Weird, we had strange dreams. I told her, don't ignore the signals. Don't be in denial. But at the same time, one must fikir yg baik ajer. So the solution is sholat istikharah, minta petunjuk. In between the mind boggling talk, we managed to laugh our hearts out, share memorizing surah techniques. Yeah, sometimes I need her to push me a bit further to think positive. So, ok.....I've decided.
It's been a while since we met. I guess it's about time to meet up for lunch. What's AZ doing now? Sonyap ajer after her trip from Perak. I miss Jeynab, too. Shucks! We could've met this Saturday. Next one is out as I've kuliah...hm......if only she continues writing, hilang sket rindu. But then again, where got time. Now that's she's working. Sigh......I'm missing the girls.
U see I'm so bored. This is my 2nd entry. So lemau laa.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 14:05 #
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D is for..... |
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Decisions......decisions.....!!!!! I'm in dilemma. That's bad. I've this feeling that I'll be stuck at home in the end. I'll be sulking 24/7. But then again, there's always blessing in disguise, right? Mungkin Allah menjanjikan yg lebih baik di akhirat kelak.
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penawar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg mengisi hidup ku.......
Should I go or not???? Is it a wise thing to do??? I hate being a pessimistic. But I'm so pessimistic now!!!!!!!! URGH!!!!!!!!! Aiseyman, Beydah! A part of me says - go, worry later. A part of me says - what ifs.......Berok dlm Jerok betol laaa!!!!!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:23 #
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Wednesday, January 11, 2006 | |
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Life changes |
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We all go through some life changing moments. As I sit & type my entry for today, I turned back over my past, I'm looking at myself today. What does the future hold? Wallahualambisawab.
Ah....but I appreciate the blessings Allah pours on me every single day. Despite the harsh surroundings, I'm still able to pass through the thorns of life. Alhamdulillah. I appreciate the unsung heroes who are always there for me. I know that I shall be going through hard times in the near future, but hey, that's not new at all.
Somehow, I'm feeling pessimistic today. Don't know why. Might be the dream I had last night. You see, whenever I had strange dreams, unpleasant things happened. It may take days, weeks or months for me to relate those incidents that appeared in my dreams. The dream is still bothering me now.
There's a little voice in me telling me to start standing on my own 2 feet. There's this urge of wanting to go back to work again after talking to my friend. Come to think of it, there'll be small obstacles to pass through. The boys are big enough. They're reliable & don't need me 24/7.
I was told I've to think far, to see to my needs. She said, I'm skating on very thin ice. I must protect myself. She's 100% correct. At the end of the day, no matter how highly educated the woman is, she's still at a loss. Like another friend said, men are the bigest cheaters, but you found out when it's too late coz you're already married to him. Thus, women must be smart. Now I remember the exact words my cikgu said. This was way back in sec. sch. Gosh....! Why the hell did I ignore her advice?!? Stupid Idiot!!!!! I know I can't turn back time. There's no use sitting & sighing - regretting or kick my own butt!
I did get some lightbulb moments today - through ST & rerun on Oprah show. I know that there are some life changing moments that we must go through. There are major sacrifices we have to make. My heart is beating so fast now. This is not good. Ineed to sidetrack, otherwise I'll be nuts.
Last Saturday, ustz continued with Samudera AlFatiha. The book mentioned about the 9 planets, the distance, the weight, the speed of light......so many instances to show Allah's greatness. Ustz said, kalau nak tahu siapakah orang yg kuat imannya, adalah org-org yg ahli dlm ilmu falak. Sesungguhnya, yg kafir telah mempengaruhi manusia bahawa segala penemuan dlm kajian mereka adalah dari kebijaksaan mereka. Walhal, semua ilmu yg terdapat adalah milik Islam kerana semua keterangan ada di dlm AlQuran. Kita cuma membaca, tapi tak faham - tak belajar tafsirannya. Ustz menekankan, tahun lepas riuh tentang penemuan planet ke 10. Tidak jadi hairan
, sebab dlm AlQuran surah Yusuf ada penjelasan -inni ra aitu ahada 'asyara kaukaban wasyamsa wal qamara ra aituhu lii sajidiin -sesungguhnya aku bermimpi melihat 11 bintang & matahari serta bulan, semuanya kulihat sujud kpd ku.
Jadi tak hairanlah, sudah tertulis dlm AlQuran, zaman Nabi Yusuf, baginda telah bermimpi akan 11 planet. Bayangkanlah......sekarang dah ada 10 planet, kalau sudah sempurna 11 planet........mungkin itulah kiamat???? Ustz juga menekankan, Nabi Muhammad wafat hanya setelah Islam itu sempurna, isi AlQuran sudah sempurna - maka tugas Baginda sudah selesai - yakni sudah tiba masa Baginda wafat. Jadi apa lagi, yg kita tunggu? Masa yg berlalu tak akan kembali. Betul kata ustz, kalau boleh tak nak tinggalkan sejadah.
Dlm forum di masjid AnNadhah, ust mengsyorkan para pemimpin keluarga jadikan pergi ke masjid setiap minggu sebagai aktiviti keluarga. Ajak isteri & anak meluangkan masa di masjid. Masjid adalah tempat kita mendapat ketenangan dari hiruk-pikuk dunia. Kisah dunia tidak akan pernah habis. Ianya berkesudahan apabila kita mati. Jadi bila kita hendak ingat akan Allah, berkomunikasi dgn Allah?
Aku baru sedar, betapa rindunya aku dgn ustz rock. I enjoyed her class. Sekarang dah bab rukun iman....wei dah banyak aku miss, ni kene baca from the start!!!! I needed some miracle......I got lightbulb moments from her.
Pada 9 Zulhijjah selepas Isya' ust masih menekankan peri pentingnya kita mengingati Allah, beriktikaf dlm masjid bersama keluarga, memakmurkan masjid. Khutbah pada sholat AidilAdha pula, ust mengingatkan para jemaah akan tanggungjawab ibubapa terhadap anak, tanggungjawab individu memakmurkan Islam.
Terngiang-ngiang takbir pada 9 & 10 Zulhijjah. Syahdunya hingga tak terkawal linangan airmata. Alhamdulillah, kesempatan yg Allah beri - anak dah besar, so no excuse tak sholat jemaah pada 2 hari kebesaran Islam. Insya'Allah, I'm looking forward to the next sholat jemaah - 1st Syawal.
Entah mimpi apa......his siblings and family came over to our house....heh ni ganti mil - kiter jadi Along. I'm glad that his sisters look up to him, I'm feeling they love him. Wow....it takes years, I guess as you get older, you realise that family matters. We left home together to visit nenek. Somehow, it wasn't the same. We miss our loved ones who left for haj. But we're glad that they've completed the haj obligations.
Hey.....no more palpitations!!!!! Alhamdulillah. Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim...I love you, Allah. Thank you, Allah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 16:49 #
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Saturday, January 07, 2006 | |
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Mabokz..... |
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Bukan......bukan mabuk cinta. Mabuk angan-angan. Spoke to aunt Yah yesterday. She said aunt Ley & aunt Jun nampak 1 woman who looks like aunt Yah. Woohoo!!!! Tapi jelerz jugak aku. You see, years ago, when mil, aunt Ley, aunt Yah & nenek went for umrah, mil & aunt Ley saw a woman who looked exactly like me. Terpinga-pinga sekejap, asal budak nie ada kat Mekah? Alhamdulillah, sampai juga kaki ke Mekah & Madinah. So, I was so happy to hear about aunt Yah. Insya'Allah she'll be going for haj end of this year. Jelerz....sebab aku nak gi lagik.....so aku suruh all of them to look for someone who looks like me......ley gitu?????
MIL sounded happy over the phone, we talked for a while. Managed to talk to aunt Ley. Aunt Jun sempat tanya where's the best place to shop. I said, once you find something you really like, just grab!!!!! It's so true, aku sikit ponG tak kesal with the things I bought. I didn't bother to compare or ask myself "what if there are better things at the other place".
I so happy for all of them. Rupanya, ibadah haji belum selesai....yer tak yer, lupa. There's bermalam di Mina, berkumpul di Arafah, back to Mekah for tawaf Haji.
I'm mabokz......Had a cuppa mocchachino last night, had difficulty to sleep. Woke up quite early. We were talking about Dubai, I told him Pai is waiting for me to visit her. Heh, he said, you wanna come along? Saper nak jaga budakz? If you can arrange something, ikot aa.....heh. Arrange ley...abih fulus?????
I asked what about June hols? Can we all follow aunt Normah's family annual trip? It would be fun. We all go dutch laa, macam gi Langkawi dulu.....the boys have enough savings.
I told him I feel like going back to workforce. I was offered to do relief teaching for 3 months. Member kata kiter nyer bahasa ibunda kat blog ley pass jadi cikgu beydah. He asked, you - teach? Can you? Heh...aku ponG takder konfiden. But member insists ley. Then I said, if I go back to workforce...I wanna teach. He asked, are you willing to be bonded for 9 yrs? Na-uh!!!!! Ok,laaa..aku rasa jadik preschool cicher better sket laa. Bond ponG tak lama. He said, ok...fill up yr time, the boys are big enough...YIPPEEE!!!!!!!
Sebab-musabab aku MABOKZ!!!!!!!!! Penuh dgn angan-angan Mat Jenin. Insya'Allah, ia mungkin jadi nyata.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:37 #
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Fadhilat |
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Aku teringat kata-kata mil. Dia kata walau bagaimana berat pun masalah yg dia hadapi, dia tak nangis. Bukan tak nak nangis, tapi tak ternangis. Dia cuma sholat, baca Quran, zikir, doa. Lepas tu, bangun dan boleh teruskan hidup seperti biasa. Tak termenung mengenang nasib. Aku rasa ada betul jugak. Begitu juga nasihat-nasihat yg bernas yg aku terima.
Aku yakin, entah macam mana, aku tak tahu.....aku yakin, tak berdebar-debar melainkan naluri berkata ada sesuatu yg tak kena pada hari itu. Alhamdulillah, sekarang aku merasakan fadhilat yg aku amalkan. Buku Al Mathurat menjadi teman setia ku. Buku-buku dari Ust Hj Ismail Kamus juga ku jadikan panduan bagi amalan harian. Ada juga buku yg InanG beri - tulisan Ust Hj Sawifi, buku Ustz Salbiah, cd Ustz Siti Nor Bahyah.
Di dlm buku Ust Ismail Kamus, waktu yg diutamakan membaca AlQuran ialah :
1. Di waktu tengah malam sehingga fajar, paling utama.
2. Di antara Maghrib & Isya'.
3. Sesudah sholat Subuh.
Pahala membaca 1 huruf dari AlQuran :
Dlm sholat, 100 kebajikan.
Di luar sholat, di dlm wudhu , 50 kebajikan.
Tanpa wudhu 10 kebajikan.
Banyak lagi pahala & fadhilat yg Allah beri bila kita membaca AlQuran.
Baru aku sedar, ustz selalu ingatkan agar kita membaca AlQuran ketika dlm sholat ketika membaca surah pada setiap rakaat. Jgn asyik baca surah yg sama saja pada setiap rakaat & waktu. Dia cadangkan kita membaca 1 mukasurat setiap rakaat. Lama-kelamaan kita akan rasa seronok membacanya.
Bismillahirrahnirrahim......I love you,Allah. Thank you, Allah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 09:28 #
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Thursday, January 05, 2006 | |
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Lemau..... |
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Cousin Eena called last night. She said the family had just completed their Sa'i, menandakan mereka telah selamat menunaikan haji. It was 5pm in Mekah. Alhamdulillah.
Back at home, I'm feeling so very the lemau. Perhaps the non-stop action last weekend plus the lack of rest on 2nd & 3rd January. I've to skip my gym sessions till after 10 Zulhijjah, hopefully, things will go back normal. Have to start my healthy lifestyle all over again. Diet wise, I'm ok, but I've to take my jamu & supplements religiously from now on. Yup.....I'm feeling so old, so rusty. I can feel the age is really catching up. But hey, thanks to Dr Perricone's book. But then again, really, if one wants to be awet muda.....senang jerk. Banyakkan membaca AlQuran, berzikir & sentiasa dlm berwudhu. Even before we hop into bed, Cik Ahmadini mengingatkan ku agar mengambil wudhu. Jadi bila kita tidur seakan kita tidur di taman syurga.
I guess I'll be planning my schedule next week. Terngiang-nigang kata-kata para asatizah, bapa adalah pemimpin & ibu adalah pendidik. Overall, ibulah yg membentuk keseluruhan anak itu. Bayangkan......dgn 4 orang bujang yg dipertanggungjawabkan oleh ku. Yg duniawi, yg ukhrawi, segala yg merangkumi keperibadian mereka sebagai seorang individu. Mereka bakal menjadi pemimpin, merekalah dunia & akhiratku. Madrasah, kelas mengaji sahaja tidak mencukupi, aku wajib follow up at home. Heh....whatever it is, hal akhirat mengatasi hal duniawi. Berat.....takut. Tapi mana boleh lari dari ini semua,kan?
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 13:56 #
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MIL, aunt Ley, cik Sam & cik Jun telah berangkat menunaikan fardhu haji pada awal dinihari 3 Januari yg lalu. Kali kedua buat mil, & aunt Ley, pertama buat cik Sam & isteri. Suasana di lapangan terbang tidak sesibuk seperti musim haji yg lalu. Mungkin kerana orang semua kembali bekerja & anak-anak memulakan sekolah. Turut berangkat pada hari yg sama tetapi pesawat yg lain ialah cik Ahmadini & cik Leha yg mengetuai jemaah sebuah syarikat pelancongan. Aku doakan agar mereka sihat & selamat. Semoga mereka mendapat haji mabrur & selamat pulang ke pangkuan keluarga, InsyaAllah.
Sesungguhnya, tahun 2005 telah kami lalui dgn penuh kegetiran. Kami semua berharap & berdoa agar tahun ini akan kami lalui dgn ketenangan & kebahgiaan, lebih-lebih lagi sepulangya kaum keluarga yg melakukan ibadah haji, InsyaAllah. MIL & aunt Ley berazam utk menghabiskan masa sebaik-baiknya...aku rasa doa yg ingin mereka panjatkan. Bagi cik Sam & cik Jun, aku dapat bayangkan airmata mereka menitis kerana kesyahduan, mengikut aliran jutaan manusia melakukan ibadah bersama mereka.
Bayangkanlah 100,000 pahala bagi setiap sholat di Masjidil Haram & 1,000 pahala di Majid Nabawi. Tidak termasuk syafaat dari Rasululah, minum air zamzam & berbagai-bagai lagi....baru semalam ust mengingatkan kami lagi akan kelebihan bersholat, baik sholat seorang atau jemaah, makmum, makmum masbuq.
Alhamdulillah, Fidel looks forward to every Tuesday night. He's interested. He's always complimenting the ustaz & how he understands ust's explanation. He remembers the kuliah well even without having to take notes, unlike me.....I must have the textbook & I need to jot down what ust says. Alhamdulillah.....words can't describe how blessed I feel seeing him after kuliah. Last night, I believed the ust's sisters approached us. I guess they knew we were newcomers. They invited us to majlis zikir on Thursdays. He seems interested.....Alhamdulillah. I've been wanting to go attend the majlis.....Allah opens the opportunity for me...and him. MasyaAllah!!!! It's a wonderful feeling.
Ust invited all of us to grace the new masjid, An Nadhah @ Bishan. On Saturday after sholat Isya' there will be a forum about Fungsi Masjid. I suggested to Fidel that it would be good for all of us. The boys will have a better understanding about the masjid, InsyaAllah. Ust also encouraged all of us to fast on Monday, then invited us to iftar at the masjid, sholat jemaah, takbir for AidilAdha & tahlil for our loved ones. Ust kata, waktu beginilah kita rasa syahdu, kita mengingati orang-orang yg kita kasihi yg telah meninggalkan kita. Ust did mention heavy spread of dinner after the majlis & we can contribute kuih-muih, heh........bab makan nie kalo Masjid Khadijah & ust........agaknnyer nasi briyani...kekekekekeeeeee.
I can still remember a feast organised by sukarelawan masjid & ust's family last week. After kuliah, we were all invited to surprise ust on his 58th birthday. It was a big occassion. The spread was fabulous, I was pleasantly surprised that Fidel was willing to stay on.
Ya Allah, I understand. You give what I need & not what I want. You give me the opposite of what I ask for, but it turns out to be blessing in disguise. I understand & I'm so grateful. You are with me 24/7. I feel your presence. I know you are so close to me. I love you, Allah. Thank you, Allah. Don't turn me away, Allah. Don't ever leave me. You are all that I have.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:16 #
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PINKIE HEARS |
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PINKIE SHARES |
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I'tiraf
Wahai Tuhan
Ku tak layak
Ke SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula
Aku sanggup
Ke NerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku
Terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya
Engkaulah Pengampun
Dosa-dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku
Bagaikan pepasir
Di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu
Ampunkan daku
Oh Tuhanku
Wahai Tuhan
Selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala
Kejahatan & kecelakaan
Kami takut
Kami harap
KepadaMu
Suburkanlah
Cinta kami
Kepada Mu
Kamilah hamba
Yg mengharap
Belas dariMU
Penantian By Harmoni
Berapa lama mesti ku nanti
Sinar cahaya mata mu
Gemerlap bagai bintang
Menghiasi malam
Malam yg menutup diriku
Berapa lama perlu ku tunggu
Lontaran suara dari bibirmu
Memecah hening taman
Taman syurgawi
Pada sebuah hati yg sepi
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penwar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg meniti hidup ku
Doa By Harmoni
Tuhan ku
Dlm termangu
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Tuhan ku
Cahaya Mu
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Tuhan ku
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Tuhan ku
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
Nasyid By Hidayah
Kepada Mu Ilahi
Yg Maha Agung Yg Maha Suci
Ku pohon perlindungan
Dan keampunanMu
Pada setiap sholat
Ku lafazkan doa & pujian
Kukuhkanlah taqwaku & keimanan
Semoga diriku diselamatkan
Dari segala bencana
Limpahilah diriku dgn sinar penuh kemuliaan
Agar tidak digoda syaitan
Yg sungguh durjana peruntuh akhlak
Inilah doa seorang insan
Mohon perlindungan
The Reason
Hoobastank
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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