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I've been crying, moaning for the past few days. I asked Allah for help. I told Allah I just couldn't take it anymore. I told Allah I'm the weakest link, I don't know what to do, I've nothing but Him but I feel He's not near me. I feel abandoned. I asked Allah to take me out of hole, I don't want to be associated with them anymore..just let me live my own life, yeah, let others see that I'm the loser. In fact I don't mind being the loser if it makes them happy & satisfied. If it means I'll get back the peace, then get me out of this web.
Just before Maghrib, a familiar voice greeted me on the phone. She has returned for a short break with her children. I knew that talking on the phone wouldn't be enough. After sholat, I asked Fidel to send me to her mom's house. She got down into business.....she talked non-stop. She fuelled me with firman Allah, hadith Rasulullah. She kept asking me, what do you really want? It's never yours, will never be. Because everything belongs to Allah. The reason that you're here is to be a true muslimah, to strenghten iman, to do all the good deeds so that you have a place in jannah. All that you're facing - the enemies, the heartache are all from Allah. Allah is testing you, you shouldn't let Syaitan poke you all over. It's not easy to have the good stuff, one must work hard for it. One must go through endless pain. But through sholat, through doa - direct communication with Allah, you will be able to face all that. The key is not to slacken, build that bond with Allah continuously, not randomly.....Insya'Allah.
Allah has answered my prayers. Allah brought her to me. Just that 3 hrs with her, I felt good all over again. I knew it all along, but it takes someone to remind me again. Subhanallah.......She reminds me that I'm not living life alone. I have my beautiful, wonderful children to nurture......yes....I learn to use these words - my beautiful, wonderful children. Their success is mine, so how could I lead them to failure?!? The phrase - buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jgn sekali. But Allah says - selalu buat baik, dgn sesiapa pun walaupun musuh. So "buat baik berpada-pada" is not a useful term at all.
Someone said, "biarlah.....aku tak nak susahkan hati aku, biarlah aku ikutkan saja jalan yg telah Allah lakarkan utk aku." Wham......Bam....!!!! Betul juga katanya, mengapa harus aku rasa sedih, resah? Sesungguhnya ini semuanya dari Allah. Allah Maha Mengetahui. Yg perlu aku lakukan ialah minta Allah mudahkan segala urusanku, jadi mengapa aku harus khuatir akan nasib diriku? Ingatkan kebaikan orang, lupakan keburukan orang & make the best of it. Bukankah kita inginkan yg begitu juga? Kita ingin orang mengingati kebaikan kita & bukan keburukan kita? Nah.......sudah terang - jawapannya memang sudah ada pada ku.
Allah has answered my prayers. Allah showed me the answers through her. Be the loser in the eyes of others, but you're never a loser in the eyes of Allah. Hold on to Allah's promises, you'll never be disappointed.
Jadilah seorang yg redha akan setiap pemberian Allah & jadilah orang yg diredhai Allah.
I love you, Allah.
Thank you, Allah.
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PINKIE HEARS |
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PINKIE SHARES |
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I'tiraf
Wahai Tuhan
Ku tak layak
Ke SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula
Aku sanggup
Ke NerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku
Terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya
Engkaulah Pengampun
Dosa-dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku
Bagaikan pepasir
Di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu
Ampunkan daku
Oh Tuhanku
Wahai Tuhan
Selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala
Kejahatan & kecelakaan
Kami takut
Kami harap
KepadaMu
Suburkanlah
Cinta kami
Kepada Mu
Kamilah hamba
Yg mengharap
Belas dariMU
Penantian By Harmoni
Berapa lama mesti ku nanti
Sinar cahaya mata mu
Gemerlap bagai bintang
Menghiasi malam
Malam yg menutup diriku
Berapa lama perlu ku tunggu
Lontaran suara dari bibirmu
Memecah hening taman
Taman syurgawi
Pada sebuah hati yg sepi
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penwar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg meniti hidup ku
Doa By Harmoni
Tuhan ku
Dlm termangu
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Tuhan ku
Cahaya Mu
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Tuhan ku
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Tuhan ku
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
Nasyid By Hidayah
Kepada Mu Ilahi
Yg Maha Agung Yg Maha Suci
Ku pohon perlindungan
Dan keampunanMu
Pada setiap sholat
Ku lafazkan doa & pujian
Kukuhkanlah taqwaku & keimanan
Semoga diriku diselamatkan
Dari segala bencana
Limpahilah diriku dgn sinar penuh kemuliaan
Agar tidak digoda syaitan
Yg sungguh durjana peruntuh akhlak
Inilah doa seorang insan
Mohon perlindungan
The Reason
Hoobastank
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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