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Just another day.... |
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Yesterday's menu was telur ikan tenggiri goreng, jantung pisang masak asam rebus, tempeh goreng & pengat durian. Damn.....so ngantukz since returned from Christchurch. Slept at 2000hrs last two nights. Fidel teased - why? jetlag or u r still in NZ time? heh..8pm here is midnight there....Yerlaa....go on tease me!!! This morning he asked - so r u up to go to NTUC tonight? Me - heh (sengih tak abiz-abiz). He - er, or r u gonna sleep at 8 again? Me - no laa.....we'll go ok?
Yar hor...must kick this habit!!!!! Rumah berserak dgn NZ brochures, new books & magazines. I'm one happy bunny to get hold of Donna Hay. Bought 2 small cookbooks at MPH @ $3.50 each. I don't know when he'll be ready to organize the holiday photo album. I thought of making it like a scrapbook...but so much work laa....One main problem - to look for a good photo album/albums.
While talking to Kiah yesterday, she said she wanted to pass Abdullah's jeans to the boys. They're still new....gosh!! Abdullah, suddenly has grown taller. I realised that Iz is taller than me now!!!!! I couldn't beleive my eyes when I saw our holiday photos...I thought it was just camera trick. Over dinner last night, he told us that he's 1.6m!!!! What?!?.....?!? I couldn't believe my ears!!!! Yeah...there goes my ego!!!!! He gave out a chuckle when he found out my height.....humph!!!!!
Fidel & I agree that Iz is gonna be taller than Fidel anytime soon. And....I admit he's handsome...awwww!!!!!! Cute!!!!! I wouldn't want to agree at first when Fidel's aunts keep mentioning how handsome he is. Heh..I can't avoid anymore laa....dah jatuh saham aku!!!!! Id is quite good looking, too. Especially when he smiles. Han...well.....Han is always Han. I tell you, he'll grow up become a romantic guy. I can just tell. Hin....he's too young to tell. We still consider him BABY.
Mommy & daddy have to make way for the 4 little men.
Today's menu Mee Goreng for dinner. Lunch will be heavy snacking of epok-epok (sadin/telur) kuih kosui, popiah basah, jenekek, kuih lapis from Deli Maslina. I have 3pm appointment for Tahu Goreng!!!!!!!
Meanwhile, my mood for baking is on again. Thanks to Donna Hay. I've been browsing through recipes for Salmon patties. We've tasted the best Salmon patties in Methven @ Arabica Cafe. I didn't have the courage to ask for the recipe from the owner. But I can always rely on AllRecipes.com all the time. or perhaps Martha Stewart.
Since we didn't get to go to Kaikoura for crayfish, Salmon patties in Methven is the best meal for me.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 11:51 #
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PFFFTT!!!!!!! |
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I'm one angry woman coz I still haven't feasted on my lontong kering & tahu goreng!!!!! Neber mind....the consolation is, gua suak masak besao niari!!!! And I bought fresh flowers...so there, I'm not as angry as I thought.
Yeah....I think I wanna go back to the old days - have fresh flowers at home. I remembered arwah mak liked to buy fresh flowers. During my home econs days, I learned flower arrangement. Even bapak was pleasantly surprised & gave me some brochures on flower arrangement. Just now, I complained to Kiah - boring sey, bunga sekarang mahal aah. kalo dulu 1 tangkai orchid 40-60 sen..sekarang $1!!! rose masih ok jugak ah....80 sen. Kiah - dulu tuh tahun braper yg ko beli??? Me - heh, dulu masa tinggal kat Kallang Bahru!!! kekekekee.......Terbahak-bahak Kiah dibuatnyer.
Yes, indeed...fresh flowers brightens one's mood, one's home. Orchids last long, I love golden showers... must buy lots of them & put in the vase.....cantik sekali. This morning, I bought 4 stalks of purple & 4 stalks of white. I also bought a small pot of pokok daun inai & medium pot of pokok daun pudina. It's high time to do a bit of gardening - my daun-daun kering coz no one tends to them. Kene repair my pokok daun kari, daun cekur, daun kunyit, pokok daun limau purut...& the rest. I think it's high time to go to Thomson Rd nursery. A few months ago, I bought 2 plants. They were growing quite well but were stolen.....haiz.....they were just leaves, not flower bearing pun kene kaup!!!!!
I'm praying that my pokok daun inai & daun pudina tak kene kaup pulak........
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 17:47 #
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si Betina |
D,
I picked FiFi last Sunday evening. Heh....I thought I was the happy bunny to see my anak betina, rupan-rupanya, Maggie was even happier. Maggie told me FiFi was aggresive, one very garang betina. She extended her claws so many times that Maggie dared not take her out from our normal cage to the bigger cage. No one could even go near her. FiFi refused to eat. Maggie was getting worried..was about to call me. Then on 3rd day, Maggie realised the food was gone....What a relief! Finally FiFi came purring to Maggie, but Maggie still dared not go near FiFi. Haiz...FiFi, FiFi.
I was cuddling one of Maggie's exotic cats, FiFi was already hissing inside her cage...marah betol si betina tuh!!! Kekekekeeeee....yeah, I like it when FiFi is jealous. And now, FiFi is all comfy. It took a short time for her to remember her home. I love that anak betina of mine & I missed her. I got a feeling that Fidel has a soft spot for her, too.....because he saw a packet of snack meant for cats & dogs, he told me to get one for her. He gave a small chuckle when she refused the snack. But she'll get used to it, I'm sure.
My pc definitely needs some cleaning up. My 4 boys have "cocked it up" again!!!!! Urgh!!!!! I feel like banning them for life! Ah well, you can always replace a machine, but you can't replace your heart & soul, kan? Biarlaa......kalo pc nie jahanam, Insya'Allah jika ada rezeki boleh beli baru......heh, maybe aku ley kecek sang suami for a Sony laptop....kekekeke, in my dreams!!!!! I'd rather dia bawak aku gi holiday!!!!!
Pakai nampak, I can load my photos when I've cleaned up this pc of mine.....tak kosa aku nak buat sendiri...pangil budak handsome tu repairkan suak!!!!!! Aku nie bukannya IT savvy nak gi godeh bender nie.
Last night, si kenit ngidam nak durian. Ish.....apa dah jadi dgn keluarga aku? Baru 2 minggu, bukannya merantau jauh berbulan-bulan, bertahun-tahun!!!!! Pagi nie, die-dia aku nak gi dok makan lontong kering. InsyaAllah petang, carik members makan Tahu Goreng.
Nasi Lemak, sambal tumis telur semalam dah licin! Niari nak masak style Melayu lagik. That day kat Geylang, aku beli jantung pisang.....either nak masak asam rebus or buat urap macam kat buku Asmah Laili. Last night aku "knocked out" abiz....tak sempat makan durian. Fidel dapat durian reject banyak.....hm boleh buat pengat & buat tempoyak sket. Ish....tempoyak with sambal belacan...or pucuk ubi masak lemak pekat with petai, ikan bilis & tempoyak.....tak ley angkat!!!!!!!
Haiz JunG..aku teringatkan ko biler aku masak lauk kampung.......teringat Esah & Atan sedut siput......InsyaAllah, ya JunG!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:30 #
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Rindu Part 2 |
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I miss the pc so much. So I'm still hanging on to this pc of mine because the boys aren't allowed to use it for playing on weekdays. JunG sms-ed me in the wee hours while I was sleepless in the campervan a few days ago. Yup...I missed her. Just before that, I was thinking of Pai, too. And then.....I missed my buddies back home.
When I checked my emails yesterday, I was glad to receive a reply from Pai. I enjoy reading her message. Yup...I wish I'm as gutsy as she is. I wish I'm as gutsy as my schoolmates. Look at them now. I really admire them. No, D....I've no regrets about being me. I love myself. I thought that could never happen. I love life. I love the experiences. I'm grateful for the good ones & I'm glad for the bad ones. I wish I'm brave....but truth is, I'm always afraid.
On the way back to SG, I watched several in flight movies. Those movies taught me a few lessons..erm....revision, I guess. Narnia - although cerita itu mungkin menyelewengkan kaum Islam, I learned about love, trust, loyalty, family, courage again. In Madea's Reunion, I learned about forgiveness, honesty, self respect. In Memoirs Of A Geisha, I learned about survival. Yup....My eyes welled up several times, I smiled now & then & giggled quietly.
One thing I know for sure, I won't live a loveless life. I won't let people destroy the love Allah has given me that's meant to be given to others. I shall not build a wall between those who harm & hurt me. Instead, I put Allah in between me & them. As I believe Allah is with me all the time. Allah knows what's best for me & Allah never leaves me in pain & sadness.
I've made the best of what I had & I'm making the best of what I have. I won't let myself down, I won't let precious time slip away.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 17:04 #
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Rindu.... |
D,
Kiter rindu sekali....rindu tak terkira. Tak sangka.....the last few days in South Island, Fidel said, mesti carik nasi lemak!!!!! Strange....Then, everytime aku lalu KFC, aku nak sangat balik Sin-Cia-Pore!!! Then Han said, "mommy, Han tak sabar nak balik S'pore, nak amek FiFi, nak bawak dia balik, nak peluk dia, nak main dgn dia."
Aiks...?!? Maner gi semangat yg nak nak main sangat dgn snow??? Dah jelak ker?? Ni lah dikatakan - tempat jatuh lagi dikenang, ini kan pula tempat bermanja.
Too tired to hunt for local food on Saturday night. We woke up early on Sunday morning. Zoomed to Geylang. Order sehendak nafsu!!!! Nasi Lemak, Mee Siam Mamak, Rojak Mamak, Nasi Ayam, Laksa, Kuih Jongkong, Teh Tarek, Air Bandung.....macam-macam lagi!!!! Kedarah macam nak rak!!!! Lunch time, beli Slurpee @ 7/11, beli karipap Bai kat kedai kopi...finally, dinner @ KFC!!!!!!!!!
Niari macam nak gi McDonner, nak makan Tahu Goreng Power....maybe esok nak balek port makan Lontong Kering Pinkie's Version....lontong letak kuah jengganan or kuah rawon taruk sambal tumis sotong, sambal belacan, paru, serunding dan macam-macam lagi!!!! Strange combination...but taukeh kedai tuh dah paham idea mustahil aku!!!!
Sebelum otak aku kering dgn pengalaman di South Island, I leave you with this.....pada suatu hari ketika kita tengah makan dlm campervan, aku marah Id for doing something. I said, "adik, jgn buat gitu, tak senonoh!!!!" Han said, "no, mommy..bukan tak senonoh...tak snow-snow..."
Fidel & I just couldn't help giggling......macam nak rak aku tahan ketawa, bahu aku dgn Fidel turun-naik dibuatnyer!!!!!! Si budak muker tempeh tuh buat selenger ajerk!!!!!
Hai anak!...engkaulah lah racun, engkaulah penawar. Sabaw ajer laa mommy.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 10:37 #
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Home Sweet Home |
D,
Alhamdulillah. We returned home on 24th June. Mr Chong, the maxicab driver was waiting for us at the arrival hall. It was pure luck when he gave us his namecard 2 weeks ago when he sent us to the airport. He offered his service to fetch us. Alhamdulillah.
It was great family vacation. 2 weeks of screaming, yelling, arguing, laughing...yah lorr....just like back here in S'pore. Padan muker kiter....nak sangat main snow, sampai doa jgnlah hujan & snow......really, I tell you...I prefer when it's not raining & snowing.
It was campervan holiday in the South Island, New Zealand. Almost 15 years ago, both of us went there on a honeymoon, rented a 2 berth campervan & explored South Island in the early Summer....We returned during the early Winter with 4 boys & rented a 6 berth campervan. We had a whale of time. Shall I go to New Zealand again? Yes....perhaps in Autumn or Spring......in 15 yrs time??? InsyaAllah.
Back to reality....shall post the photos in Fotopages soon.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 13:33 #
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Die Die Must....Mati Mati Mesti..... |
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EEEEEEEeeeeeeekkzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!! Die die must springclean.....mati mati mesti habis packing by today!!!!! Send FiFi to Maggie tomorrow, boys to sit for last madrasah papers tomorrow, go to AA Centre to get my shades tomorrow, last minute shopping if there's any tomorrow.....
Must do some banking stuff, must jumper to borak with Kiah & AZ today. And a few errands to run. Last night, we visited mil to "kowtow" before we leave, heh.
Aku heran bin ajaib - kenapa suka susahkan orang yg nak bercuti? Sepatutnya you wish them well, kan? As for me, aku selalu praktikkan jgn suka susahkan orang. Orang gi bercuti dgn hasil duitnya sendiri, nak enjoy...so I've no right to kirim-kirim barang, aku tak masuk share bayar belanja jorang, kan....? Even if I claim I give them the money to buy me stuff & say "kalau ternampak".....bukankah itu dah semacam contract? Jadi, aku praktikkan aku tak kirim jorang apa-apa cuma wish them well.
As of last night...dah 3 orang kirim barang.....2 family nak antar gi airport. Ni yg aku takut..ada yg tersurat & tersirat....takut terima budi orang. Alasan - Er, saja-saja nak gi tengok airport...huh? Airport tu kan bukak 24jam? Yes....membahagiakan orang itu pahala. Can't I membahagiakan mereka dgn souvenirs yg ikhlas aku belikan instead of hunting for the things that they want?
I told Fidel..dah nasib aku laa....Orang gi holiday aku tak kirim, aku gi holiday dgn orangnya shopping list. Bingitz!!!! Aku sengih ajerlaa dgn ucapan InsyaAllah, tapi aku tak ley janji sebab shopping takder dlm program aku. Aku tak mo beratkan beg aku dgn barang kiriman walaupun dibayar.....kalo korang nak, aa....go there personally & buy, can? Coz....whenever or wherever you go....I donch kirim-kirim korang. So donch kirim-kirim me, can????
Anyways, aku nie bukan laa makdatin...partner aku bukanlah taukeh kayu balak...cukup-cukup utk sekeluarga, Alhamdulillah...jadi pakai otak, boley???!!!??? Kita anak-beranak go dutch, tak der orang sponsor(Fidel sponsor aku sorang jer), semua hasil kerja keras sendirian berhad....lebih-lebih lagi anak-anak aku. They use their own savings for all our holiday trips, Alhamdulillah, it's a big deal to me. It took them years to patiently save & sacrifice other luxury. So, I won't let that affect my vacation, na-uhh!!! I'm going on vacation with my loved ones, that's all that matters.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:30 #
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Yak Yak Yak..... |
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I'm gonna miss my pc. I'm gonna miss blogging. I must bring a journal, too. I told my boys to bring their journal. This is not just a holiday.....this is a learning experience. Bermusafir...melihat keindahan alam yg Allah ciptakan. Bukti adanya Allah kerana adanya dunia serta isi-isinya. Dunia yg satu hari akan Allah gulung bersama langit & lain-lain...yg akan menjadi sepi & sunyi. Aku punya visi yg tertentu utk mereka. Bercuti sambil belajar, berjemaah, insaf, syukur - adalah di antara pengalaman yg aku ingin mereka alami.
Esok, aunt Normah sekeluarga, aunt Yah sekeluarga, aunt Nor sekeluarga & nenek akan berangkat ke Brisbane...ni gara-gara aunt Yah nampak advertisement about Gold Coast laaa. Kalau tak, aunt Normah & famili akan ke NZ lagi tahun ni. Bagi kami di sini, anak-anak sudah berlonjak kegembiraan, Fidel pun dah tertanya-tanya - "bila nak pack?" Lermekzzz......aku lom habis ironing,lom abiz springcleaning.....but I told him, todaylah......sebab by today aku dah khatam ironing. Tinggal springcleaning....why springclean? I told Kiah, takut nanti kalau aku mati, orang bawak balik mayat aku..sekali rumah tak cantik!!!!! Boleh gitu?!? Kalau nak mati tuh....sepatutnya aku takut perjalanan alam barzakh aku, kan????? Lemau betol laaa!!!!
Kiah marah jugak kat aku...Dia kata, "ko ni slalu ajer buat last minute tau!!!kalo gosok siang-siang, kan dah senang..dah senang pack..sudah laa tak yah nak springclean..ala kadar sudahlaa....kan nanti ko jugak yg penat, tak enjoy holiday, pulak tuh ko kene masak during the trip!!! nanti jadi macam ko nyer trip to Dubai....macam nak rak kemas rumah, sampai sana...bentan!!!!!"
Betol cakap....tapi tak sedap aa....macam time nak gi beranak kat hospital....every time sebelum keluar, aku pastikan rumah dah cantik, bersih, baju dah digosok. So sama jugaklah...die-die kene buat jugak!!!!!
Yerlaa..sebenarnya my excitement level dah tinggi nie......camner nasib FiFi, eh? Ingatkan nak mintak Banana jagakan. Banana dari dulu finds FiFi challenging....tapi si anakdara ni anti-social. This will be FiFi's 1st time kat cat boarding. Haiz..terkopak duit aku nak kene bayar cat boarding svcs....We're gonna miss FiFi!!!
Back to my chores.......
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:25 #
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Mommy with tummy |
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Sabtu lalu, aku pergi terapi rohani dgn ustz Salbiah. This time around dia ajak kita sholat sunnat Taubat & sholat sunnat Dhuha pula. A change from the usual - Dhuha, Tasbih, Hajat. Sambungan Samudera AlFateha. Dlm sibuk membentangkan hujahnya, ustz teringat 1 kisah beberapa tahun dulu bila ada seorang kemukakan soalan Aqiqah. Ustz kata.....kita perlu aqiqahkan anak kita sebelum dia baligh. Aqiqah ini ada sangkut-paut dgn kehidupan yg dilalui anak itu. Inilah yg perlu dikhuatiri oleh ibubapa. Tengok saja keadaan anak-anak sekarang, ngerikan? Bagi kita yg belum diaqiqahkan oleh ibubapa kita, kita harus meng-aqiqahkan diri kita sendiri.
Balik pada kisah yg ustz nak ceritakan.....dia & beberapa sahabat nak makan durian di kawasan Aljuneid. Dah terbentang isi durian......sekali ternampak seorang wanita hamil.....dia terus geli-geman.....tak jadi nak makan durian!!!! Sebab...wanita itu pakai baju yg menampakkan perutnya yg besar & pusat yg merekah!!!!!! Eeeeee....gelinya!!!! Apa nak jadi dgn dunia nie??? Kalau zaman kita dulu, bila ngandung, malu sekali...selalu kita sorok. Apalagi dari segi pakaian, malu orang nampak perut yg besar macam belon!!!!! Buruk!!!!!! Yg ini - sengaja tunjuk perut & pusat terjojol!!!!! Sangkanya lawa...ish. Jadi boleh bayangkan kan tak....kalau ibu dah perangai macam nie, macam mana pula perangai anak dlm kandungan tuh?!?
Nie pandangan ustz.....baru semalam aku jumpa Florence di kolong blok. Kita nampak wanita Cina yg hamil keluar dari kereta. Florence kata - eeeeeee! see lah woman nowadays! show tummy like that. During our days ah, we hide our tummies like mad, dare not show - this is embarrassing!!!!! Haaa...orang kafir pun tak suka tengok bangsa dia jugak buat camtu!!!! Hai, gara-gara nak iktu style Demi Moore, Wong LiLin, Zoe Tay & many more......bukankah lebih cantik & mysterious jika kehamilan itu tidak ditonjolkan sedemikian rupa? Bukankah lebih anggun wanita hamil yg tidak menunjukkan perut & pusat yg membuak? Inilah manusia akhir zaman.....kitalah manusia-manusia akhir zaman......!!!!! Na'uzubillah himin zalik!
Alhamdulillah, Sabtu lalu ada majlis bacaan surah Yasiin di rumah member. Yer laaa....sekarang members aku pangkat makcik-makcik, nenek-nenek. Actually, jorang nie are a group of very interesting people. Cakap beralas, rich in experience. Tak kurang pangkat kakak-kakak..ehem - aku nie kira yg paling kecik laaa. Masya Allah....tiap kali ada gathering macam gini....so much fun. Ustz pun boleh tahan juga sabo orang. Dia beri gelaran to some of us....aku ms brownies, yg satu ms botox-(sebab pandai buat botok-botok), yg satu ms kecohs, yg satu ms sebelum (yg nie suka cakap ......lah kamu sebelum kamu di....), yg satu - cikgu sebab dia ajar ngaji. Susah nak beri bayangan the fun & bliss I had with these women. Tak sabar rasanya nak tunggu giliran utk buat majlis ini di rumah sendiri.
Last night, we went to Serangoon to have dinner. Kepingin nak makan Toseh, almaklum sebelum pergi holiday, nanti rindu makanan local. Sempat pula aku tapau Naan & kuah dal. Bebudakz nie, masa aku lawa nak tapau lebih, semua tak mo...Bila dlm kereta aku makan while it was still piping hot, ada yg chope nak lebih!!!! Rezeki, walaupun sedikit, tapi berkah...semua dapat makan. Murah beb...3keping with kuah dal only for $4. Kalo makan kat mekdoner....mahal & tak kenyang.
Eekz...the laundry's calling. Bila nak game?!? Lom springcleaning nie!!!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:27 #
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Menghitung Hari.... |
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Yes....aku sedang menghitung hari to the dark days to come. I can imagine the pain that I shall be going through...oh well, make the best of what you have, choose to be happy. Bak kata Leha, Allah akan beri kau rasa sakit, tapi Allah juga akan keluarkan kau dari kesakitan itu.
Aunt Normah called. She told me of the weather conditions there. Uncle Jai's friend happened to be on vacation at that part of town....it's -3degC.....camner, eh? She told me to be careful if we were to drive early morning as the road will be icy.....now that's dangerous....Aunt Normah normally went there early June as it was snowing. So how? We're going towards the end of June & further south lagik...it's gonna be colder!!!!! Now packing for 6 is ay-ya-yaiiii, no joke!!!!! Winter clothing-1 jacket, 1 muffler, 1 cap, 1 pair of gloves - multiply by 6...1 full suitcase. Belum baju lain. Belum maggi mee lagik!!!! Lebih baik pack for summer vacation....konon.....what I mean is holiday kat M'sia gi beach....baju semua ringan & tipis. Boleh muat beg kalau nak isi cempedak ker, durian ker, manggis ker, cencalok ker, belacan ker, tempoyak ker....
Pardon my jakon-ness....I am looking forward to this trip, finally...yeah, finally I'm looking forward to this "winter sonata". But 1st.....there's spring cleaning & laundry to be done.
Thank you for this trip, ya Allah. Is it a bonus for me, ya Allah? Thank you, Allah, thank you.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 13:14 #
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I just Called to Say.... |
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Suddenly I'm in the mood to write again. She called a while ago to check on me before she leaves. I'm ok...she left me with more positive words, keep reminding me to work hard for a place in Jannah. Just before that, I called Kiah & told her what she told me.......Kiah said, "cantik ah, dia kasi kau! what she said semuanya betul." True, like I said before I know it all along, but sometimes you need your friends to remind you.
It's so near & yet so far. Bapak came over with his friends just now. He teased me about leaving his goodie bag here.....it's for the souvenirs that I'm gonna bring back for him. The boys have bonded with their grandpa. It's no fun if grandpa doesn't sleepover....Han always look forward to his stay here. But he's just visiting this month. He keeps reminding me that he's bought fishing rod for the boys. Ah well, we shall pay him a visit soon. I can't wait for another makan session in Batu Pahat....it was so much fun walking along the pasar malam, watching the boys play with mud in front of his rented home.
Bapak saved me from cooking today. We're gonna have Ayam Percik, rangka ayam goreng for dinner. These simple pleasures.....
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 16:37 #
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The Answer To...... |
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I've been crying, moaning for the past few days. I asked Allah for help. I told Allah I just couldn't take it anymore. I told Allah I'm the weakest link, I don't know what to do, I've nothing but Him but I feel He's not near me. I feel abandoned. I asked Allah to take me out of hole, I don't want to be associated with them anymore..just let me live my own life, yeah, let others see that I'm the loser. In fact I don't mind being the loser if it makes them happy & satisfied. If it means I'll get back the peace, then get me out of this web.
Just before Maghrib, a familiar voice greeted me on the phone. She has returned for a short break with her children. I knew that talking on the phone wouldn't be enough. After sholat, I asked Fidel to send me to her mom's house. She got down into business.....she talked non-stop. She fuelled me with firman Allah, hadith Rasulullah. She kept asking me, what do you really want? It's never yours, will never be. Because everything belongs to Allah. The reason that you're here is to be a true muslimah, to strenghten iman, to do all the good deeds so that you have a place in jannah. All that you're facing - the enemies, the heartache are all from Allah. Allah is testing you, you shouldn't let Syaitan poke you all over. It's not easy to have the good stuff, one must work hard for it. One must go through endless pain. But through sholat, through doa - direct communication with Allah, you will be able to face all that. The key is not to slacken, build that bond with Allah continuously, not randomly.....Insya'Allah.
Allah has answered my prayers. Allah brought her to me. Just that 3 hrs with her, I felt good all over again. I knew it all along, but it takes someone to remind me again. Subhanallah.......She reminds me that I'm not living life alone. I have my beautiful, wonderful children to nurture......yes....I learn to use these words - my beautiful, wonderful children. Their success is mine, so how could I lead them to failure?!? The phrase - buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jgn sekali. But Allah says - selalu buat baik, dgn sesiapa pun walaupun musuh. So "buat baik berpada-pada" is not a useful term at all.
Someone said, "biarlah.....aku tak nak susahkan hati aku, biarlah aku ikutkan saja jalan yg telah Allah lakarkan utk aku." Wham......Bam....!!!! Betul juga katanya, mengapa harus aku rasa sedih, resah? Sesungguhnya ini semuanya dari Allah. Allah Maha Mengetahui. Yg perlu aku lakukan ialah minta Allah mudahkan segala urusanku, jadi mengapa aku harus khuatir akan nasib diriku? Ingatkan kebaikan orang, lupakan keburukan orang & make the best of it. Bukankah kita inginkan yg begitu juga? Kita ingin orang mengingati kebaikan kita & bukan keburukan kita? Nah.......sudah terang - jawapannya memang sudah ada pada ku.
Allah has answered my prayers. Allah showed me the answers through her. Be the loser in the eyes of others, but you're never a loser in the eyes of Allah. Hold on to Allah's promises, you'll never be disappointed.
Jadilah seorang yg redha akan setiap pemberian Allah & jadilah orang yg diredhai Allah.
I love you, Allah.
Thank you, Allah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:12 #
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GSS.... |
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The Great Singapore Sale has begun. Heh.....there we were, joining the crowd.....to buy shampoo, lotion..?!? Janji shopping,kan? The guys are so geared up...so excited..they can't contain their feelings anymore....one of these days, they're gonna burst. What about me? Hm....I don't know, really. I've dreamed of this escapade for ages...but I've reservations.I'm more nervous than excited. Part of me wants to go, yet another part just wants to stay at home. Allah, please me strength.
I really hope the boys will have a whale of time. They really deserve this. And I promise not to be petty. Just now, Han asked, "mommy, are going with us?" Me, "do you want me to go or not?" Han, "yesss!!! I want..!" I felt so guilty....I touched his cheek & nodded. I promise my boys this great adventure & I shall keep my promise irregardless how I feel......I'm feeling so miserable, but as always, it's my responsibility to keep going.....survive - burn, not for me, not for them......lillahita'ala.
So spirits up for my 4 angels....lillahita'ala.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 16:15 #
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PINKIE HEARS |
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PINKIE SHARES |
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I'tiraf
Wahai Tuhan
Ku tak layak
Ke SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula
Aku sanggup
Ke NerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku
Terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya
Engkaulah Pengampun
Dosa-dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku
Bagaikan pepasir
Di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu
Ampunkan daku
Oh Tuhanku
Wahai Tuhan
Selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala
Kejahatan & kecelakaan
Kami takut
Kami harap
KepadaMu
Suburkanlah
Cinta kami
Kepada Mu
Kamilah hamba
Yg mengharap
Belas dariMU
Penantian By Harmoni
Berapa lama mesti ku nanti
Sinar cahaya mata mu
Gemerlap bagai bintang
Menghiasi malam
Malam yg menutup diriku
Berapa lama perlu ku tunggu
Lontaran suara dari bibirmu
Memecah hening taman
Taman syurgawi
Pada sebuah hati yg sepi
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penwar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg meniti hidup ku
Doa By Harmoni
Tuhan ku
Dlm termangu
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Tuhan ku
Cahaya Mu
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Tuhan ku
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Tuhan ku
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
Nasyid By Hidayah
Kepada Mu Ilahi
Yg Maha Agung Yg Maha Suci
Ku pohon perlindungan
Dan keampunanMu
Pada setiap sholat
Ku lafazkan doa & pujian
Kukuhkanlah taqwaku & keimanan
Semoga diriku diselamatkan
Dari segala bencana
Limpahilah diriku dgn sinar penuh kemuliaan
Agar tidak digoda syaitan
Yg sungguh durjana peruntuh akhlak
Inilah doa seorang insan
Mohon perlindungan
The Reason
Hoobastank
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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