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Saturday, December 31, 2005 | |
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Azam...resolution |
D,
2 hari yg lalu, aku baru sahaja selesai sholat Subuh. Namun awan masih gelap. Seperti biasa, aku duduk berzikir, mengaji...tiba-tiba terdengar ketukan di pintu.
Knock..knock......mimpi agaknya? Belum 6.30 pagi. Yer ke tak? Dari mana? Pintu bilik ke pintu depan? Sambung dgn bacaan. Knock...knock...ish. Terus bangun. Saper tau kalo neybor mintak tolong. Jenguk di tingkap.....hmm lengang....tapi tak dengar pun tapak kaki orang berlalu tadi. Hm.....eh agaknya ketukan di pintu bilik? Hm......hatiku terus bedegup....Ya Allah, adakah itu malaikat yg datang mengetuk pintu? Memanggil penghuni rumah utk pulang ke rahmatullah? Hingga hari ini, jantung ku berpalu kuat.
Dalam kesibukan manusia membuat azam baru, aku menyingkap kembali hidup yg ku lalui. Mana perginya masa yg Allah berikan kepada ku? Apa yg telah ku buat dgn masa itu? Ke mana telah ku sadurkan rezeki yg Allah limpahkan kepada ku? Apakah & berapa banyak amalan sholeh yg telah ku lakukan dgn kesihatan & rahmat yg Allah kurniakan kepada ku?
Sesungguhnya aku ini dalam kerugian. Rugi besar. Dosa lama belum tentu terhapus, ku tambahkan dosa. Aku menzalimi diriku sendiri...kemudian menzalimi manusia-manusia yg mempertanggungjawabkanku & dipertanggungjawabkan oleh ku. Ya Allah, aku mohon jgn seru ku utk pulang dulu. Izinkan aku mendapatkan keredhaan Mu. Bila Engkau sudah redha dgn ku secara keseluruhan, maka bawalah aku pergi. Ya Allah, akhirilah hidup ku dgn perkara-perkara yg Engkau redhai.
Azam : menjadi muslimah sejati.
Resolution: must walk the talk to be the above.
Aku redha akan ketetapan yg Allah berikan utk ku. Aku yakin Allah tidak mensia-siakan ku. Aku rasa Allah dekat dgn ku. Allah tidak pernah mungkir janji.
Bismillahirahma-nirrahiim...I love you, Allah. Thank you, Allah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:32 #
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Thursday, December 29, 2005 | |
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Kata-kata Hikmah |
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He said - Bersabarlah, sayang. Jgn sedih, ya, nak. Sedarkan, bahawa ini dugaan Allah? Ini tandanya, Allah sungguh dekat dgn kita. Yakin 100% bahawa Allah akan makbulkan doa kita. Allah tak pernah mungkir janji. Doalah, minta Allah selesaikan masalah ini, Jika Dia tidak mahu selesaikan, mintalah agar Dia mudahkan segala urusanmu.
Those words didn't come from my father. But it's worth so much. Both husband & wife take me in as one of their daughters. Even the daughter gives so much moral support. Strange, when you thought the people you can count on for support just give the stupidest smile. Whereas the genuine support comes from the people who you thought could only care a bit about you.
Each we time we meet, we spend hours.....both will talk continuously & I sit listening with my eyes fixed on them. Kehadiran mereka dlm hidup ku adalah utk menguatkan akidah, membimbing ke arah yg sepatutnya aku lalui. Mereka menguatkan semangatku utk terus yakin akan kehadiran Allah. Aku harus kuat mempertahankan hak ku sebagai seorang manusia. Aku harus berdiri tegak demi kebenaran. Aku harus berpegang pada prinsip - berani kerana benar. Aku harus menepis anasir-anasir yg cuba melemahkan akal & perasaan ku. Mereka kesal akan penindasan yg dilakukan. Mereka tidak akan biarkan hidup ku terumbang-ambing. Srbagaimana kuatnya semangat mereka utk mempertahankan hak ku, aku tidak boleh menghampakan mereka. Aku harus berdiri tegak & berjalan lurus. Tidak boleh menyimpang ke kanan atau ke kiri, tidak boleh menoleh ke belakang. Aku harus menganggap ini sebagai perang, juga.
Their daughter gave me 1 word.....sabarlah. And that's enough to relief me from the pain. I shall remember this for the rest of my life - bersabarlah, sayang. Ya Allah, kau beriku kekuatan melalui mereka. Alhamdulillah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:19 #
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005 | |
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Bye bye, love...... |
D,
I've been very busy indeed. Now...where to start???
Ah, yes. Xmas Day - the boys & the dad set out early for their 1st fishing trip. Rented a boat from bil's friend. It rained heavily in the wee hours. By the time they left home, it stopped. Mommy packed sandwiches, fried macaroni, brownies & bottles of plain water.
It was quiet......so quiet. Made a plan last minute to meet up with Kiah @ Orchard...Woah....Kiah & I @ Orchard? on X'mas Day? Bayar niat seh!!!!!! She was all excited to meet up with Pai. Sempat lak mintak aku tapaukan dia brownies. This year, I've decided to give my Christian neighbours homemade brownies. Pai promised to call after 4 pm taht day. Last minute - her sister pindah rumah & her mom wanted to follow. So dodok laa tercangak kiter 2 owang. 1st to Delifrance - tak sangka pizza dia sedap. Then bijikopidaunteh......Asar sudah, Maghrib sudah. In the end Pai apologised as she couldn't escape from alcatraz. Kesian, Kiah. But we had a great time. Final stop @ McD Centrepoint. Suker staff Melayu nampak makciks nie makan on Xmas Day @ Orchard...sampai main lambai-lambai...kekekekeeee. Then it was time to go home.....uhuk...uhuk.....
It was a great day out with Kiah. A magical opportunity indeed, we had some soul searching moments. Thank you.
Back at home, they were waiting for me - apa lagi sengseng sleeve laaa.....siang ikan. Surprisingly, they caught 9 assorted fish - thunder, garoupa & others. They had a whale of time. Even the dad was all excited. The kitchen was filled with chatterbugs recalling the wonderful day they had.
Monday - Purposely woke Pai up......heh, she stayed up all night till 3am to help her sis out. She was so exhausted, so I made my own plans. The boys wanted to swim at the new pool. I just lazed as I had my eyes fixed on Perricone's Promise. So there goes my enthusiasm ..... healthy lifestyle. Now's the time to kick my behind!!!! Went home, lazed in bed watching the past series of Amazing Race & Survivior.
Tuesday...not giving up on Pai yet. How could I, we've been separated for so long. Called her & asked her out. Turned out she was leaving that night!!!!!! Eeeeekz!!!! I made her to leave her plan to pack up till later. I wanted to see her again. So we did @ Parkway. She, still in her datin-ness way, did another round of shopping. But she had good bargain,though. So many stuff on sale. We stopped for late lunch, shopped again. Since i didn't have time to bake something for her to bring back to Dubai, I bought some chocolates. Fidel fetched us. He & Pai were discussing about accomodation there. I'm sure Pai & Pau & Fidel can work something out. Heh....Pai wouldn't miss a chance to ask Fidel to take me along if his trip is confirmed. No worries, Pai said, leave her to me...kekekekeeeee.....Yahoo!!!!!! Er, doakanlah yer.......Pai was all excited. She wants Pau to take leave, too!!!! Woi, malu!!!!!!
It was hard saying goodbye again. I'm so thankful that Allah reunites us. Just those few hours with her seemed like a lifetime - but it ain't enough. Yes, Pai. I promise to keep my 5 cents in my tabung. Pai is 1 superwoman indeed. So is her other half, Pau. Fidel was amazed when I told him the position Pau holds in the company, he's still so young & to have climbed up that ladder is really amazing. All the best to you, both. You're in my prayers. Thanks for being there for me, Pai.
Some words I picked up from her.....haram, laa, PM, aloo, khalas...banyak laa lagik..terbelit lidah aku!!!!! Bunyikan loceng..lelong lelong 1,000 dirham!!!!!!! hahahahaaaaa.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 16:58 #
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Saturday, December 24, 2005 | |
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Weather Forecast, tomorrow?? |
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I'm praying hard that tomorrow won't rain. The Dad & the boys want to go fishing. I wanna meet up with Pai again. If it rains, the boys have nowhere to go...then how to meet Pai? Ya Allah, pls don't let the rain come down on us tomorrow, Amin. Ley, gitu???
Frankly speakng, I've been a lazy bum for a couple of weeks. Now.....I'm being punished! Got to butt-up to do housework! Eeeekz!!!!
I had fun menyakat abang Bartley. I'm feeling like a school girl again. Kekekekeeeee. InanG sms-ed to tell me her elder bro has a blog. She adores this one, she would never stopped telling me about him during the school days. So, I sort of "knew" him through her. And he sort of "knew" me through her. But not in dangerous way, it was in a clean cut way. It's been ages.....then 1 day I was sure it was him standing at Tampines ATM machine, with a beautiful wife beside him & babies in tow. Hm.....that was before I was reunited with InanG. Heh.....cut story short, so when InanG wrote a naughty comment teasing her bro of his blog, I told her I would do it, too. It was so much fun. I called him abang Bartley. Hish...lintang-pukang abang Bartley suruh mak dia telefon si adek - saper budak Cedar yg tocang dua baca sajak kat skolah Bartley dulu who happened to be si adek nyer good fren????? Kekekekekekee....berdekah-dekah aku & InanG dibuatnyer. Anjat boy-boy!!!!! Lepakz seh! Then he found out it was me.........
I tell you time changes everything. He's a good writer - ceh....now I realise that InanG & siblings have this hidden talent of writing so well. I believe they can write books if they want to. I'm so amazed. Tabik...tabik. I hope abang Bartley doesn't find out my blog...malu aku, bahasa kucar-kacir. It's nice "meeting" you again, abang Bartley. Heh....through his writing, he's still who he was.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:39 #
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Friday, December 23, 2005 | |
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Enjoy Sakan.... |
D,
I was busy with Id in the morning. Rushed back, called Juw to confirm our outing. It started to rain but it didn't dampen my spirit at all. Datin Pai Dubai was waiting restlessly at Raffles Hospital. Tak ku sangka, cempedak jadi nangka - si Pai pakai ala datin style. Mampos aku kene sumbu dgn dia - eh, hujan....ala aku takot jatuh nie....eh abiz basah kasut aku!!!! eeks...basah beg LV aku!!!!!!!!! Haram ko.....tak sediakan aku payung!!!!!!!
I tell you, pakkal bukan lantai rumah, kalo memang lantai rumah aku...dah tergolek-golek aku ketawakan si dektu!!!!! Aku & Juw berpakaian santai ajer...si Pai alahai.....kiter 2 owang jadi si Pai nyer entourage! Tak lepas dgn bahasa Arab dia. Vainpot nyer...makkau!!!!! Dia nyer keletah memang tak ubah. Tak jadi makan kat Straits Kitchen, kiter gi Suntec Secret Recipe. Rounding kat carpark almost 45 mins, terus kiter kluar gi Millenia carpark lak....crossover...si datin pekik lagik......eh kasut aku basah, beg aku basah!!!!! kekekekeeee. Lepak ah!
Kiter bual-bual, tukar berita...hai rasanya akulah yg paling bodoh antara kita. Apakan tak, dua ekor tuh blajar sampai menara gading, gaji tinggi melambung. Lebih-lebih lagi si Pai. Sebab tuh dia mampu beli sumer branded from top to toe, she has every right to be proud of the things she buys. Duit yg dh dia kasi, dia simpan for rainy day......best kan....ehem....suami dia, status manyak tinggi. Heh...korang ingat aku jelerz ker??? Tak...tak.....lillahitaala, aku tumpang gembira utk mereka. Sebab ramai budak sekolah aku had humble beginning. Berkat usaha gigih, jorang semua jadi orang, bukan pailang macam aku. One thing I'm grateful for is jorang masih giler macam dulu. We still accept each other as we were before....jorang masih humble.
Si Pai nak shopping. Macam nak ribut di buatnya. Aku terus nak panjat shuttle, without thinking of paying for the food!!!! Bengap tol!!!! Dah lerr, si Pai terkedek-kedek dgn kasut tinggi Aldo nyer. Si entourage muker tempeh ikot datin. Dia beli brooch butterfly design 3 biji..kekeke. Lepas tuh dia gi Chanel counter. Dia kata kat Dubai barang branded dah mahal. Heh..tu pompan....bayar tak pake credit card..all cash!!! Mak datok...brapa ratus ribu dia bawak, aku ponG tak tau. Aku & Juw tukang cuba-try-test barang Chanel. Heh..sempat tenyeh lipstick sample kat bibir masing-masing. Si Juw dah bising..oi cepat laa beli..!!! Terkedek-kedek si Pai bayar barang..kekeke. Gamat seh! Sempat masuk kedai Aldo. Fuu...yuuu.....cantik kasut, cantiklah harga. Hish...si Pai nie takkan ah semua Aldo design dia ada???? Eh, dia tak pake kasut BATA ker, selipar JepunG ker??? Aku ponG apa lagi, cuba-try-test laaa, biler lagi nak masok kedai Aldo...?
Kiter transit kejap kat bakery...almaklum nak layan si mak datin. Dok kat Bakerzin. Tak silap, kiter makan 3 different slices of choc. cake - sumer sinful belaka. Dia kata eating out is very expensive...4 orang nyer teatime about 200...dirham ker dollar, aku tak ingat. Jadi ko bayangkanlah betapa ghairahnyer dia tengok makanan yg berlambak & murah kat sini. Nyaman menghirup lavender tea, si Juw terbegik minum double macchiato, si Pai lak taking her own sweet time with kapucino.
Ehem....si Juw mati-mati nak balek before 5pm...almaklum, dh dia bangsa "suami-sayang-isteri" nyer type. Tak ley isteri ilang dari mata, walaupunG sekejap, kekekekeeeee..bertuah badan. Tapi bila lagi nak dok lepak macam nie. Juw pejam 2 mata & carried on with us. Heh....mak datin nak makan Prego nyer seafood pasta. So, aku offer blanjer memberz. Adalah beberapa macam kiter order......macam sket tapi hah ko...skali datang, penuh 2 meja! Melantak macam nak rak...mengilai macam pompan gilerZ...eh tak laa, buat malu kompeni jerk.
Fwah! Nie bukan lagi afternoon date with girlfriends! Dah malam, nak dekat pukul 10!!! Nasib baik ada lagi shuttle to go back to Millenia. Si datin lawa kiter gi Dubai next year..dianyer turn nak jamu kiter lak.....nanti eh, aku simpan duit 5 sen sampai penuh tabung aku, heeeee. Tak puas dgn tuh, dia ajak aku gi Bangkok for spa laa, gi chk-in kat hotel on Xmas Day laaa.....ish si Juw - tak agak-agak suruh chk-in kat hotel 81!!!!
InsyaAllah Pai & I are meeting again this Sunday as the dad & boys are leaving me for a fishing trip. Pai janji takkan pake baju datin!!!!! It was a great day. Thanks for lunch, Pai. Thanks for your service, Juw. Penat tapi seronok gilerZ!!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 14:40 #
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Thursday, December 22, 2005 | |
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Tobat.....tobat....!!!!! |
D,
Selasa lalu, aku kuatkan semangat. Dah lama aku dengar tentang kuliah oleh ust Ali. Kuliah di dlm dewan, duduk di kerusi tak lah semut-semut kaki. Bagaikan rusa masuk kampung kita dibuatnya - orang lain pakai kasut, kita dah berkaki ayam. Ok, InsyaAllah minggu depan mesti ingat - boleh pakai kasut dlm dewan.
Ust beri penjelasan yg jelas. Sebab tuh ana kata ana makin bodoh setiap kali ana pergi kuliah. Pinjam skrip P Ramlee, bak kata Hajar - bapak saya kata, hari ini, hari bodoh saya. Sebabnya, ada sahaja perkara baru yg dipelajari walaupun topiknya sama. Malam itu, ust terangkan bab Al Fatihah dlm sholat. Sayang sungguh.....buku jilid 1 tu dah separuh. Dah banyak ana ketinggalan. Tapi ana tak kecewa cuma menyesal tak ikuti dari tahun lalu.
Ust sempat pula menerangkan tentang faedah sholat, satu-satunya tempat di dunia yg dapat menghapuskan dosa. Makin berkobar hati ana nak simpan duit. Nak ke tanah haram lagi. Ust kata - mana nak dapat 1 kali sholat itu seperti 100 ribu kali? Di Masjidil Haram. Di Masjid Nabawi 1 kali sholat, dapat 1 ribu kali....bukankah itu dapat menghapus dosa manusia? Bukan itu saja, di Masjidil Haram ada air zamzam. Fadilat air zamzam bukan main hebat lagi. Di Madinah pula, kita mendapat syafaat Rasulullah sebab makam Baginda di Masjid Nabawi......hebat, kan????
Ust kata, pergilah ke tanah suci, tak kira haji atau umrah. Ingat utk bersholat sajalah di sana. Rebutlah peluang ini, katanya. Sucikan diri di tanah suci, pulang dah kotor semula. Pergi lagi, utk sucikan diri lagi......rebutlah peluang ini. Jgn pergi sekali saja. Terngiang-ngiang kata ust. Ana macam nak pergi itu jam jugak!!! Ana nak pergi seorang. Tinggallah suami, tinggallah anak......tidak ada makna lagi kehidupan ini......Ana mohon pada Allah, undanglah ana lagi, sebanyak kali mungkin hingga putus nyawa di kandung badan ana.
Heh....eksyen cakap ala Arab pulak, ana-ente.....ok, switch channel.
Cubaannya nak ke masjid ialah parking. Malam itu, kita letak depan kedai durian. 5 minit perjalanan ke masjid.
Semalam, sempat aku membaca beberapa mukasurat Mengapa Wanita Disiksa Di Alam Kubur. Heh.....tobat aku...tobat!!!!!!!!
Quote :
Rasulullah SAW bersabda,
- Barangsiapa meninggal dunia, maka Kiamatnya telah tiba.
- Kubur bisa saja menjadi taman dari taman-taman syurga atau lubang dari lubang-lubang api neraka.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:50 #
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005 | |
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two become one..... |
D,
I'm so happy for catlover...the rat who loves cat....She looked radiant, blissful. Sesungguhnya, inilah saat yg dinantikannya. Her children were happy, her mom was happy. The groom.......of course ah beb!!!! Happy sakan kawan tuh!!! Selamat diijabkabul dengan 1 kali lafaz. Waktu yg paling sayu bagi ku ialah ketika tuan kadi membacakan khutbah nikah. Sesungguhnya itulah intipati perkahwinan. Itulah angkat-sumpah bagi suami-isteri. Begitu juga dgn taklik, ketika sesudah akad dilafazkan. Semoga kekal hingga ke syurga, sis!
Bagaikan jodoh, nampak kelibat Hajar.....nasib ko sungguh baik, sis. Taukeh Neo abiz tuh pompan - anak 4, ada maid, rumah condo, kerje sideline jerk - mak andam!!!! Bertuah badan! All the best, Jar!!!!!
Sekarang, aku nak backtrack......
Semalam - janji ratah lauk dgn Tipah kat kak munah. Nasib baik kiter tak pakai baju sama, tudung pun lain shade.....phew! Perut kenyang tapi takkan nak biarkan boncet, kan. Kiter ponG jln kat JCK. Girang sakan aku dapat beli buku - Mengapa Wanita Disiksa Di Alam Kubur oleh Muhammad Ash-Shayim & Jgn Melampaui Batas oleh peybret aku, Dr Aidh Abdullah Al Qarni. Jln lagik ke Yo-Ko-So....member nak shopping sakan....aku ponG terpengaruh. Jln lagik.....Spore Post, beli buah tangan utk tuan rumah. Tak lupa singgah ke Biji Kopi Daun Teh. Heh...tak sempat nak Zuhur di Darul Aman.....langsung ke rumah Iman. Terubat juga rindu. Dan buat pertama kalinya, setelah sekian lama cuma "kenal-kenal", bertemu Alia. Pertemuan yg tidak sunyi, ada saja keletah anak yg perlu dilayan, sambil berbual seperti berzaman tak berjumpa.
Terimakasih, Iman & Alia. Insya'Allah kita jumpa lagi. Tipah.....aku tau, ko ada projek tudung lak.....kekekekeeeee........thanks for the wonderful afternoon.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 12:39 #
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elementary, my dear watson - sherlock holmes |
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Suddenly it's a hectic week. Heh.....& I'm enjoying it. Despite the on going turmoils, I'm feeling peaceful. MasyaAllah, sungguh menakjubkan. Shout otus to Tipah, Iman & Alia.....more of that later. Ooh.....so happy to see Muffin & Muffet again, lil' Muhammad is so adorable...ok,ok, more of that later & Yo-Ko-So. Wah...evening kuliah with Ust Ali was worth it. Really, aku rasa aku makin bodoh as I learn something new each day, walhal perkara tuh kiter buat selalu....heh...more on that later, hor - Tipah.
Today, my catlover gal is getting married - she's remarrying. A mom of 2 marrying a bachelor...fooooyooooo!!!!! Age difference sket lebih kurang Madonna & Guy Ritchie gitu. Haaa.....saper kater makjan tak laku???!!!????!!!!! Ok.....time to siap to go to ROMM, the solemnisation is at 0930hrs..that leaves me half an hour to siap. i've to be there by 9.15 latest...eeek.....macam aku lak yg nak nikah - lagik!!!!!!!
How amazing it is......to be peaceful & happy in times like this....Subhanallah. Heran jugak aku.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:57 #
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005 | |
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I need more of...... |
D,
I hate this feeling. Ada yg tak kena. Macam nak sepak,terajang,tumbuk orang ada, macam nak jerit ada, macam nak lari jauh-jauh pun ada. Hm....baik ambil wudhu & baca AlQuran & wirid. Amek air magic & spray 1 rumah pun ok jugak. Semoga berambus si iblis & jin kafir.
Ya hayyu ya qayyum birahmatika astaghrisu.........................sing with me now!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:31 #
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Monday, December 19, 2005 | |
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Si berok ditimpa perasaan |
D,
I didn't hit the gym on Friday. Instead, I joined the yoga yogi yogu gang. I felt good as I was able to overcome the negative vibes in me. Saturday morning was the lightbulb moments for me. Coincidentally, ustz was reading the pages & clarifying the context which were meant for me.......oooh......I could see the lightbulbs flashing non stop.
Shucks! I couldn't make it to Flamenco workshop in the afternoon. We sent mil to sil's house, off to visit uncle Sam & aunt Jun to wish them well for their pilgrimage. Hmm....yeah, I know that I don't belong to the Orchard crowd anymore - especially on Saturday night...lebih-lebih lagi time Xmas!!!!! Tapi best jugak tengok anak-anak muda memenuhi masjid Al Falah utk sholat Maghrib. Alhamdulillah. A good change indeed. Dulu masa aku muder-muder, masjid nie sepi.
Kemudian, masa utk mengharungi lautan manusia dari Al Falah ke Lido. Sungguh aku tak sanggup. In a way, ok jugak, at least anak-anak mengharungi dgn mak-bapak, bukan dgn geng yg kiter tak kenal. Tak rugi bayar duit tiket malam tuh! We enjoyed watching King Kong. Heh, always expect the best from Peter Jackson, laa. I'll wait for the dvd to come out. I wanna watch it again & again!!!! By the time the movie ended, it was almost 1am. The boys were soon asleep right after washing up.
Sunday morning - all of us only had 4 hrs of sleep. Had breakfast at McD Clementi. The boys & dad were off to Science Centre to see the exhibition on Star Wars thingy. I've decided to attend ustz Salbiah's Sunday class at Masjid Darusalam. Met up with Tipah & the rest of aunt Ley's friends. Yup, I learn something new each day. Will summarize it later.
Said farewell to Tipah as the rest of us headed to aunt Ley's home for lunch. It was Nasi Rawon set. Her friends were visiting her to wish her well on her pilgrimage. This will be her & mil's 2nd trip & uncle Sam's & aunt Jun's 1st trip. Timing was perfect....the boys & dad arrived after the ladies had their lunch. And so we spent a part of the afternoon there...the boys were busy fixing their new Lego set.
So it's gonna be a lazy Monday. Hopefully just for the morning........
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:40 #
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Friday, December 16, 2005 | |
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Why must you leave me....? I need you!!!! |
D,
Ustz ngaji is leaving us!!!! I knew it sometime ago. Well, she has to. I'll be missing her...so much! She has been my strength since the day she entered our home. It'll be a slow process anyway, but she'll eventually move to Melbourne for sure. I'll be seeing her now & then, I'll be calling her often, I'll be sms-ing her all the time. Whatever it is, I wish her & her familly all the best, dunia & akhirat. She's the bestest person I've ever known. Now to look for a new mak guru.....
I did half of circuit training & half of HABT with Nelam on Wednesday. Then it was circuit training with Nelam & belly dance with the sexy Stacey. Today.....lemme see, maybe just circuit training. This normal routine really takes the stress off me. At least aku tak murung melayan kerenah anak-anak sebab dah lepas geram & peluh kat gym.
Life goes on.....he was on mc for 2 days. Saper yg jaga? Aku jugak...si tuer kutok nie. Niari dia dah gi keje......dapatlah go back to my usual routine at home.
Esok ada date dgn ustz Salbiah @ masjid Ansar. Masa utk berus hati yg dah lama berkapang!!!! I hope she'll read zikir & doa hari Sabtu with us. Ustz ngaji selalu pesan, buat baik selalu, especially pada orang yg tak baik pada kita. Hai...Allah sajalah yg tahu hati ini. Allah sajalah yg tahu apa di dlm fikiran ku ini. Dia ingatkan lagi, apabila kita ditimpa kesusahan, sebenarnya kita tidak keseorangan. Zahirnya nampak kita seorang tetapi Allah bersama kita sentiasa. Allah yg paling dekat dgn kita di waktu kesusahan. Jgnlah goyah keimanan kita, sentiasa yakin & kuatkan diri mengingati Allah & meminta apa saja. Bila hati & ingatan kita hanya pada Allah, kita tidak memerlukan manusia atau apa-apa lagi........
Ok.....but I still need to channel out my stress through circuit training.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:55 #
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005 | |
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Shortchange....... |
D,
Florence returned from Hokkaido on Monday evening. That woman...I tell you, she's been to several places this year. This one is work cum leisure. She brought her 2 girls. She said it's very nice. The snow is very clean. Heh...even the waterfall is frozen.
It's been centuries since she repaired my face. We were so excited to meet up again. As usual, there are so many updates to report. Alhamdulillah......I'm so blessed with the support system that Allah gives me. I'm so touched that even she feels for me. So back to my old face - she kept me in her salon for almost 3 hrs!!!!! And you think I squirmed??? Nooooo!!!!!! I slept through the treatment. Yup, she purposely let me sailed through into lalaland. Heheh...woke up feeling like a million dollars & the old face has rejuvenated. She said I shouldn't shortchange myself after all the things I've done at home, for the family. I shouldn't when I've run their lives smoothly. Hmm.......yah hor!!!!
It's was raining when I left, took a bus to City Plaza & walked around for a while to wait for the rain to stop. Fidel called to fetch me & we were off to Borders & Mustafa Centre. My pockets full of pebbles. Time to let the boys have a taste of my small stones as they had done well for the exam. I finally got hold of 2 books by Dr Nicholas Perricone, something like his 1st book, The Perricone Promise. What else......my masala toseh & teh tarek at ABM restaurant, 3 Malay cds by Ziana Zain, Broery Marantika & Suhaimi Mior Hassan - compilation of their hit songs.
Now let me jiwang-jiwang with Ziana, first...ok?????
Puncak Kasih
Dalam air... tenang
Arus menyusur... damai
Sekali embun yang menitis... memecah
Di mana percikannya di mata
Lalu kusentuh
Basahnya kejernihan
Dalam hati... sunyi
Bagai hening pagi
Tiada beza lagi kedukaan ini
Andai nilai setia... tiada
Bagaimana pula nantinya
Di dalam istana
Serikah warnanya
Retak kasih ini
Berlimpahan rona luka
Telah pun kita simpan
Tak sedikit sejarah percintaan
Puncak kasih kita
Rendangnya oh... seketika
Bagai cerita...
Satu mimpi episod cinta
Terpaksa aku redha
Walaupun dalam nyata
Kau merisik... tanya
Tidak ku percaya
Dalam air... tenang
Hati melawan... sunyi
Tiada beza lagi... kedukaan ini
Andai nilai setia... tiada
Bagaimana pula nantinya
Di dalam istana serikah warnanya
Hebatkah cinta
Dalam air tenang
Arus tak menyusur damai
Sekali embun yg menitis memecah
Andainya tiada cahaya
Tidak ku mampu utk menghadapinya
Madah Berhelah
Di dalam sendu yang teramat
Ku lihat senja yang berlabuh
Dan malam yang melepas layar
Kaku aku di sini
Bersama harapan terbakar
Siapa di antara kita
Yang dulu memula sengketa
Pastinya diriku bagimu
Yang engkau anggap punca
Biarpun ketara engkau yang mula...
Bukan sekali kau suarakan
Kebimbangan pada cintaku
Kau tak mampu
Bersendirian tanpaku
Itu semua lembut lidah
Manis madah penuh helah
Yang pastinya...
Aku adalah sandaran...
Bagai hilang semangat diri
Keyakinanku...terlebur kini
Sesungguhnya kau ku sanjung tinggi
Bererti hanya kau di hati
Sayangnya kejernihan cinta
Yang mencermin setia
Kau keruhkan warnanya...
Menadah Gerimis
Bagaikan terdengarnya suara
Menghakis mengikis naluri
Mengeruhkan jernih suasana
Dan meretak harapan
Tiada erti aku merindu
Jika kau tak ingin bertemu
Apa gunanya bercinta di dalam kepura-puraan
Yang lafaz cinta hanya di bibir
Namun diri tak seringnya hadir
Di saat engkau diperlukan aku hampa
Usah dikelirukan cinta
Yang terkusut jiwa merana
Jangan dengan separuh hati
Diri ini kau cintai
Usahlah renung hanya di mata
Benamkanlah ke dasar hati
Renunganmu telusnya pasti
Berarasy ke syurga cinta
Menanti kunjungan hampir pasti
Mengharap titis embun pagi
Dan bagai menadah gerimis
Yang masih pulang pergi
Cinta Di Akhir Garisan
Cabaran penuh liku
lazimnya kan berlalu
bila cinta bersatu
Segala prasangka
yang datang tanpa rela
diatasi segera
Belum bersemi adanya sangsi
inilah nyatanya
walaupun pedih mengguris tabah
harus kita fikirkan
Cinta sebenar...naluri
ada sabar.. serasi
tiada gentar luahkanlah hatimu
inilah buktinya
cinta yang diakhir garisan
Ku rela...sebutlah
Jgn gentar...buktikan
Luahkanlah hatimu
Inilah buktinya
Cinta yg di akhir garisan
Setelah dengan ikhlas
memberi tanpa balas
usah diam membisu
kau cari pintu hati
kau buka dengan janji
keikhlasan ku nanti
Jangan memendam luahkan rasa
curahkan semua
disitu kau dapat rasakan
kebenaran menyala
Walaupun kau masih mencari cinta
jika kau berdusta kata
hancurlah segalanya
hatimu yang bersinar mencurah rasa
terima semuanya
dirimu yang punca bahagia
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 06:39 #
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005 | |
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How many more hurdles......? |
D,
He returned from Montreal yesterday with lots of workstuff & souvenirs for the family. The highlight was the Maple Syrup!!!! The photographs were beautiful indeed.
Well, I made it through another hurdle, sisters. But hell broke loose. So now.....I'm waiting for another hurdle to set up & I don't know if I'm able to jump this one. It's so exhausting. Tell me, what have I done or what have I not done? I followed by the book, I followed rules, I followed the system. Why is it my fault when the decision has been made...I didn't make that decision!!! It's takdir Allah, right? It's qadha' & qadar, right? When Allah says kufayakun, then it happens. Why blame me? Whatever I say or do is with Allah's will, right? Nak menentang takdir..? Go ahead, it's beyond my means. What else can I do? I'll just keep praying for the best.
Right now I'm living in fear as the threats came pouring in. Innalillahwainnailaihirajiun. Ya Allah, lindungilah aku dari kezaliman manusia.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 07:08 #
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Sunday, December 11, 2005 | |
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Belly, butt, buffet |
D,
Had a good time yesterday. The belly dancing workshop was so much fun. Since the turn out was good, Nelam has decided to start the belly dancing class in January. Stacey is a beautiful woman. She dances with passion. Her fats are well distributed. She makes woman with big tummy looks gorgeous. Now, I don't have to be embarrassed with my big butt & bulging belly. I sure can put them to use, now. Next week is Flamenco workshop.
In the evening, we went to Zariah's place for barbecue. Finally, I met up with her other family members. They're a great bunch of people, even their spouses are great company. I brought my usual sutff - brownies & chicken nuggets. Her barbecue spread was delicious - gado-gado, laksa, grilled kebabs, chicken...haiz, so much more. Heh...my neighbour, Kak Aya (Zariah's sis) was late. I've stuffed myself while waiting for her. It was a good weekend indeed.
And today, I've to stay at home & finish up with the normal spring cleaning routine. The workout sessions are becoming regular. I've been MIA from the gym for so many months. I'm glad that I've paid up for 1 yr membership with All Shapes. It's really worth it especially with the Joo Chiat outlet is closer to home. And....I don't have to fork out extra $$$$ to learn Belly Dancing elsewhere!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 12:34 #
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Friday, December 09, 2005 | |
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What day is it......???? |
D,
I had a fantabulous time. Thanks to those who made it happen.
Wednesday - Reached Kiah's place before 10 am. Helped her in the kitchen. One of my "bakal menantu" was there, too. Yes, Ita......I hope you'll accept my proposal. Meanwhile, I'm grooming my boys for your approval. I know you're doing a good job in raising your daughter.
Time passed. Jeynab was late. We missed Ita as it was her 1st day of work. Our "kenduri doa selamat" was led by the hostess, Kiah. She recited a short doa while my "bakal menantu" recited doa penutup. The occassion was for 4 children who passed their PSLE. The spread was Nasi Jagung, Beef Briyani, Dalca Sayur, Acar Timun Nenas, Ayam Goreng. Dessert consisted of Epok-Epok Sayur, icecream, brownies. Jeynab was her usual self. It's always good to meet up with her.
Tipah yg tinggal sebelah blok, joined us. It was her 1st time meeting Jeynab. It was hilarious with Kiah poking at Jeynab constantly. Tipah was satisfied that she finally got hold of the Samudera Al Fateha. It was never enough chatting up with Tipah. and I was poking fun at Kiah about the Old Chang Kee incident at Sembawang. Sesunguhnya, ko tak fofular, Kiah...owang tak pandang ko........tapi ko pong tak luak, kan????? kekekekekeeeee!!!! Dunia zaman sekarang, if you're a "nobody" owang tak heran. Di situlah kau dapat menilaikan ketulusan seseorang apabila dia menjalinkan persahabatan. Yelah...aku tau...aku sedar saper aku nie. Namun, Alhamdulillah...network yg Allah beri kpd ku mendatangkan kebaikan di antara satu sama lain kerana masing-masing punya keistimewaan tersendiri - ikhlas berkongsi ilmu & sedia menerima dgn kesyukuran. Aku sering mengingati diriku - setiap perbuatan yg dilakukan bergantung pada niat. Keikhlasan itu penting.
Tipah pulang....tambah seorang lagi sahabat. Ita baru pulang dari kerja. I'm so happy for Ita. Semoga rezekimu bertambah. Anak dara sunti sungguh excited-mited belajar buat brownies. Dia tak sabar nak buat sendiri di rumah. Begitu juga Jeynab..nie kes tak payah pakey cake mixer. Si bujang-bujang pula sibuk bermain di bawah. Kiah's mil wasn't bothered with our presence.....I know that she loves Kiah, like a daughter she never had.
After Maghrib, me, the bujangs & Kiah went to Causeway Point. While they spent their money at the arcade, me & Kiah met up with AZ. It was a last minute idea.......Iz & Id sleptover at Kiah's, while me, Han & Hin sleptover at AZ's. Lil' Hafiz & Jeynab who were lazing at home were jumping up & down...wanting to join in the slumber party!!!! kekekekeeeee.
AZ's dh left for work, we had McD for our late dinner. AZ & I talked till 3am. Even Han was so excited that he slept later than us.
Thursday - It was 7am, hehe....as usual, AZ liat sangat nak bangun!!!!! Had a good chit-chat session with AZ's dh when he returned home & was waiting to send us to our destination. After thanking them for the sleepover, my juniors & I bought breakfast for Kiah's household. And so..........the adventure didn't stop there. We all went to Tampines where the boys did their Friday prayer, while Kiah & I did some window shopping. We finally said our goodbyes, thanking them for their hospitality.
Finally reached home after 4pm. I had to hit the gym. It was a great workout....& now I'm so tired.......but it was all worth the while.
My boys were a happy lot. I know they're looking forward to this kind of activity again when their dad is away. Thanks to Kiah & AZ for your hospitality. I'm glad Jeynab & Tipah are no longer strangers. I enjoyed myself tremendously.
Spoke to Fidel about him being featured in the local papers today. Congratulations, you deserve the recognition. May Allah bless you, partner. Our disappointment was that he was misqouted, but we know that's the norm with the media.
Gonna hit the sack now.......I love my midweek. Thank you.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 20:55 #
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005 | |
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Tendang pantat dia...!!!!! |
D,
I was early. Susan was there. It's been months since we met. And so we did the huggy wooggie thingy. Nelam was preparing for HABT class. So I've decided to have 2 doses of physical torture. 1 hr with Nelam was fantastic. 1/2 hr of circuit with Susan was just fabulous. It was really kick ass moments - as usual, Nelam would add some Muay Thai (something like kickboxing) in her routine. Hee.......seemed that I opened the ceremony for circuit training today. I was the first to use the equipments, so they all got all of my sweat...yippee!!!!!! And soon after, I was sitting lazily on the sofa for an hour before I finally left the gym. I was one satisfied woman. The stress is out of my system.
I've signed up for Belly Dancing workshop on 10 Dec & Flamenco workshop on 17 Dec. Both at Joo Chiat outlet 2pm-4pm. I'm all excited because there's a Belly Belly routine every Thursday morning. And oh.....there's Pilates, in the evening, too. So besides circuit training, I can do other workouts. Just great!!!!
Pst.....visit allshapes.com.sg. Call for free trial.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 14:27 #
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midweek confession |
D,
I've a confession to make. After yoga, me & my kakis have a new activity. Kiter tak balek rumah trus. Kiter singgah kat keday kopi which is 15 mins walk to our flats. Kiter lepak for about half an hour or so.......enjoying the tahu goreng & teh tarek!!!! Macam drug ah!!!!! Punya laa sedap sakan...sedap giler. Sampai abg bawak teksi pong tau, dia nyer epok-epok power kedemak!!! Besao.....sedap, only 50 sen!!!! Laku macam biskut...kejap ader....kejap takder...kwang-kwang-kwang!!!!
Yeah, the kakis & I are getting closer by the day. We usually meet once a week for ngaji, tapi skrang makin kerap due to yoga sessions. Best.....sebab ia memberi peluang bagi kita meluahkan apa yg terbeku dlm frezeer perasaan masing-masing. Untung dapat neybors yg prihatin akan satu sama lain. We're no longer living "closed doors". Akak Beydah suker......skali!!!!
Back to the keday kopi. Bagus jugak tempat tuh jauh sket. Sebab, lepas isi perut, kiter senaman lagik. Kiter walk back home. Jadi tak rasa guilty laa.
Today......so looking forward to start my circuit training at Joo Chiat - the old PPIS gym. Nelam did a good job. She changed the outlook of the gym, it has a kiddies' room. It's so fun. Susan will be there today. I'll be seeing less of her but I do hope she trains me when I drop at Bugis outlet.
There will be major changes in my life - inside & out. Although it's still misty. I'm not sure, myself. But I'm ok with it, I'll be ok.
To my fellow sisters out there - you know who you are, keep in touch ok? You know how to reach me if you don't see me here often. Yes, I miss writing to you. Insya'Allah I'll keep on writing. As you can see......can you feel a breeze change of air here?
Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim.......I love you Allah, thank you Allah. Basahkan lidah dgn kalimah ini.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:48 #
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005 | |
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Can Never Forget Whitney |
D,
She's one of my favourite singers. Wherever you are, whatever you do - thank you for the songs. If it ain't for Bodyguard on TCS 5 this afternoon, I wouldn't be humming to these songs. Especially in times like this........
Run To You
I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
Oh a girl that's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me
I feel so all alone
I wanna run to you
I wanna run to you
Won't ya hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away
Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
Oh woah what's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share them with
Tell me what does it mean
Run away, no
I need you here I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
No if you only knew how much I wanna run to you
Ya know I wanna run to you
Won't ya hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away
I Have Nothing
Share my life, take me for what I am
Cause I'll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, I'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do
I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
(Your love I'll remember forever)
Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you.
You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls with the strength of your love
I never knew love like I've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to
I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide
(Your love I'll remember forever)
Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must I imagine you there
Don't walk away from me...
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If I don't have you, you, you, you
I Will Always Love You
If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way
Chorus:
I will always love you
I will always love you
Bitter sweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So goodbye, please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you need
Chorus
I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all this I wish you love
Chorus
All At Once
All at once,
I finally took a moment and I'm realizing that
You're not coming back
And it finally hit me all at once
All at once,
I started counting teardrops and at least a million fell
My eyes began to swell,
And all my dreams were shattered all at once
Chorus:
Ever since I met you
You're the only love I've known
And I can't forget you
Though I must face it all alone
All at once, I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Wishing you'd come back to me
And that's all that matters now
All at once, I'm drifting on a lonely sea
Holding on to memories
And it hurts me more than you know
So much more than it shows
All at once
All at once,
I looked around and found that you were with another love
In someone else's arms,
And all my dreams were shattered, all at once
All at once
The smile that used to greet me brightened someone else's day
She took your smile away
And left me with just memories, all at once
chorus
I was watching the re-run of Oprah yesterday. It was the AfterShow. There was a segment where Goldie Hawn said - when you say someone completes you, you're in trouble. No one else can complete you. Only you can complete yourself.
So true. It's so real. So the famous line of Jerry McGuire is totally bullshit! Er, which script? That one when Tom Cruise said - You complete me -. OK, I'm not gonna watch Jerry McGuire anymore......hee.
Thank you for the wisdom.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 18:55 #
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Monday, December 05, 2005 | |
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I have to let go....... |
LETTING GO
TO LET GO does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.
TO LET GO is not to cut myself off, it's the realisation that I can't control another.
TO LET GO is not to enable, but to allow learning from natural consequences.
TO LET TO is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
TO LET GO is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make the most of myself.
TO LET GO is not to care for, but to care about.
TO LET GO is not to fix, but to be supportive.
TO LET GO is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
TO LET GO is not to be in the middle arranging all outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
TO LET GO is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality.
TO LET GO is not to deny, but to accept.
TO LET GO is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
TO LET GO is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
TO LET GO is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
TO LET GO IS TO FEAR LESS AND LOVE MORE.
(unknown)
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 19:18 #
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Malas Monday..... |
D,
Semalam, kami lima beranak telah pergi ke masjid. Iz menghadiri kelas ulangkaji bagi peperiksaan madrasah tahap PSLE. Yg lain pula, sibuk membeli buku & baju seragam utk tahun depan. Alhamdulillah, masjid yg baru dibina semula sungguh indah. Hai...kalaulah dapat tinggal di rumah sebendung yg dekat dgn masjid tuh...!!!!!
Kemudian ke rumah mak & bapak angkat..ahah...banyak betol mak-bapak angkat aku....untung badan, oi!!!!! Alkisah, jorang nie aku nyer "guardian" ketika pergi umrah dulu - tumpang mahram, so jadilah mak-bapak aku throughout the whole journey. Rindu...dah lama tak bertemu. Inilah kali pertama dlm majlis walimatul urus, para jemputan dihidangkan makanan pengantin seperti biasa...tetapi ada sedikit keistimewaan - ada bubur nasi!!!!! Siap dgn ikan bilis, kacang goreng, telur asin!!! Han makan bubur bertambah!!!!!!
Mak Leha & Pak Dollah mungkin nak pergi umrah lagi tahun depan. Hari tuh, Mak Leha tanya, "amaciam? nak gi umrah lagik tak?" Aku, "eh....nak, mak leha!!!!! Boleh kiter tumpang awak lagik!!!!" Mak Leha pun suka. Entah macam mana aku, AT, Mak Leha, Pak Dollah, Cikgu "bonda" & suami begitu mesra macam dah lama kenal, macam keluarga. Tak lupa juga Syafiq, anak bujang yg menjadi bodyguard & porter ketika aku shopping kat BinDawood. Hai...kalaulah aku ada anak perempuan, memang aku chope si bujang nie jadi menantu aku!!!!!!
Ya Allah, izinkanlah aku melakukan umrah lagi. Rindu sungguh akan Madinah, Mekah, Jeddah. Masih terngiang-ngiang dlm ingatan akan pengalaman manis lagi syahdu itu. ok..ok laaa......aku mengaku.....aku juga rindukan makanan & shopping spree nya jugak!!!! Tak lupa juga kedai dobi - tersangatlaaa murah, beb!!!! Tairu kat sana is the best, Laban, org Arab call it. Roti pita dia...mak kau!!!!! Besau, macam-macam jorang isi, tak lokek jorang tarok terong, pickles, meat, fish cutlets, salad, dressing mak oi...macam-macam...all for less than SGD2!!!!!!! In fact, sebut ajer aper nak kedarah....dgn sekelip mata ko dapat....kat depan mata betol-betol! Dan rasanya tak pernah mengecewakan. MasyaAllah!!!!!!
Sebab tuh laa...beg aku berat macam bawak batu besar dari gunung-ganang kat padang pasir tuh!!!! Excited-mited!!! Tak sangka dapat shopping that's worth every cent!!! Lepas tuh, merengkek aku tarek beg-beg aku. Kesian sang lelaki yg tolong aku, jorang anjat abiz biler angkut karong guni kepunyaan aku. Nasib baik tak kene excess baggage fee....fooyoooh!!!!!!!
Aku bilang korang, eh......mat arab yg kat sana tuh...jambu terantok-benjol!!! Segak & menawan. Asal???? Sudah terang....sholat tak tinggal!!!! Air muka tuh, bersih ajer. Mat S'pore sumaer kalah abiz. Tapi jorang nyer gatal.......tak ley angkat!!!!!! Tulah, kalo org kata mat arab gatal & jahat, memang betol cakap ah. Minah arab lak....punya lah cun-melecun!!!! Sebab tulaa jorang tutup abiz sampai nampak mata ajer macam ninja turtle!!! Cantik betol perempuan arab...putih melepak, gebu, hidung mancung, mata menawan...fooyoooh tak ley tahan aku tengok jorang, sampai aku segan sendiri..apalah ada pada aku nie. I tell you, tuh ratu cantik sumer tak der class laa. Kalo aku yg perempuan nie mulut ternganga kerana tertawan akan kecantikan minah arab, ko bayangkanlah perangai jantan-jantan yg berkeliaran kat muka bumi nie jika ternampak si minah arab nie!!!!! Tapi nak katalah sket....minah arab yg tak tutup aurat, tak cun.
Sebab tukan, kalo perempuan melayu gi umrah ker haji ker....selalu kene kejar dgn mat arab. Ada laa sekali tuh, aku & AT tengah sibuk cari ATM. Si mat arab hensem tengah withdraw duit. Kiter pong cakap inggrish kat dia tanyer ley withdraw duit ker tak. Dia pong jawab in arab..lerr, macam ayam & itik berbual. Lepas tuh, dia helpful jugak laa....then dia tanya sambil beri isyarat - asal tak tutup muka??? Dia macam marah jugak ah....aikz, abih kiter kan pakai jilbab?!? AT gesa aku suruh cepat. Yer laa, takut kene kidnap!!! Nasib baik, kiter selamat. So next time, InsyaAllah, aku nak pakai macam ninja turtle kalo gi sana. Eh, kiter dapat free kain yg nampak mata ajer pasal shopping spree on jubah. Dah practise pong camner nak pakai. Kat S'pore nie, aku pakai buat belly dancing act depan ya habibi aku ajer laaa.....
Asal korang sengih?!?!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 11:33 #
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Meryl, Uma on Oprah & Ustazah Salbiah. |
Thanks Oprah for having Uma. It was fate to watch the show tonight. Uma is very real - revealing her thoughts & feelings. And there was Meryl. She's so real, so down to earth.
Oprah's favourite question......what do you know for sure? I know that a person is blessed if he/she is honest & sincere. Love surrounds him/her from unexpected sources.
Now, isn't that good?
Somebody smsed me to recap yesterday's class. I think 1 simple lesson is enough. Ustz Salbiah said, apabila seorang anggota keluarga keluar belajar ugama dgn sungguh-sungguh iaitu tidak ponteng, keberkahannya, semua anggota keluarga yg dapat. Termasuklah binatang peliharaan kita seperti kucing. Hm....kalo aku??? Best jugak, kan? Kucing ada, ikan 2 tangki pong ada...heeeee!
Ustz ceritakan kisah benar terjadi pada seorang muridnya. Dia rajin belajar ugama. Satu hari, dia beritahu ustz dia tidak akan hadir kerana nak cuti sekejap - nak jaga anak. Sebab dia terdengar orang komen....dia sering keluar belajar ugama, dgn itu dia sering tinggalkan anak-anaknya di rumah tanpa dijaga - entah makan ker tidak, main terus agkanya tak belajar. So ustz kata, cutilah kalo tak sedap hati bila orang komen gitu. Sekali tuh.....ketika wanita ini ponteng kelas & duduk di rumah menjaga anak, seorang daripada anaknya dilanggar sebuah motosikal di luar rumah.
So you see........Allah Maha Berkuasa. Selama dia keluar belajar, Allah melindungi anak-anaknya yg ditinggalkan di rumah. Oleh kerana 1 hari wanita itu ponteng kerana komen orang, anak tu jugak yg ditimpa malang. Jika kita percaya pada Allah & pasrah kepada Nya, insya'Allah semuanya selamat. So, jgn jadikan kerja kat rumah tak abiz-abiz, anak masih kecik, takder babysitter, suami off day, suami nak makan kiter nak kene layan dan banyak helah lain sebagai alasan tak belajar ugama.
Renungkanlah.........masuk kubur sorang, kan????? Anak, suami tak leh jawabkan.....jawab lerr sendiri!!!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 21:05 #
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Where does My Heart Beat Now....Celine Dion |
D,
We're 2 selfish people. As long as there is love, the hurt just melts away. As we wait for the uncertainty to unfold, we parted.....sealed with kisses & hugs. The fight was like million years ago though it happened just the night before. Perhaps the usual separation will do us good. For me, I can't wait to be alone. I want to be with Him. I need Him so much.
As he left us, I sent a silent prayer. May Allah protect him & may he return to us safely. How could I be so nasty to tell him not to call, not to sms, not to email?!?! I was fuming mad...I was so hurt - I wanted to hurt him even more. He knows it's all his doings, so like it or not, he has to accept all the crap from me. We're both confused......and so we wait.....and wait.......and wait.
I've cooled off, no point keeping the anger & hurt for too long. Life & time are too precious. Packed his stuff with so much emotion. The afternoon out erased the horrible pep talk. Before he entered the cab, he said he's gonna call....I nodded helplessly.
Hm....a fight is good after all. A less perfect relationship is ok, I guess. In the end, the love envelops 2 people deeper. I long for him....I know he longs for me, too.
We are 2 very selfish people indeed.
Now, time for Him. Please wake me up after a short night nap. I need You so much. There are so many things I want to say. I need You to grant my prayers. You promise that if I ask You, You will grant them. You want me to ask from You....no one, nothing else. It's when I open my big mouth to ask from You, it means You want to grant them. Soon or later......it's up to You. You know what's best for me. I know You love me. I love You, Allah....thank you, Allah.
So, watdaya think? Is this a good short story for your coffee break???
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 08:18 #
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Thursday, December 01, 2005 | |
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When I Need You....Leo Sayer |
D,
Being with the right people at the right time make you life a breeze. Gosh!!! i lost my momentum in Yoga just because of my spiderwebbed mind. After 2 days with Zariah, I'm back to my focus self. Yup, my YogaYogi kakis are just great. Now, I'm back on the right track, Alhamdulillah. Remember...know your birth right (hak). Serapkan keIslaman dlm apa jua yg kita lakukan, pelajari. InsyaAllah, selamat.
Samudera Al Fatiha by Bey Ariffin is fascinating. Can't wait to attend ustz Salbiah's class this Saturday. I need to go out & look for more books.
I'm picking myself up......slowly......yeah, I miss me, too.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 14:13 #
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PINKIE HEARS |
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PINKIE SHARES |
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I'tiraf
Wahai Tuhan
Ku tak layak
Ke SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula
Aku sanggup
Ke NerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku
Terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya
Engkaulah Pengampun
Dosa-dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku
Bagaikan pepasir
Di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu
Ampunkan daku
Oh Tuhanku
Wahai Tuhan
Selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala
Kejahatan & kecelakaan
Kami takut
Kami harap
KepadaMu
Suburkanlah
Cinta kami
Kepada Mu
Kamilah hamba
Yg mengharap
Belas dariMU
Penantian By Harmoni
Berapa lama mesti ku nanti
Sinar cahaya mata mu
Gemerlap bagai bintang
Menghiasi malam
Malam yg menutup diriku
Berapa lama perlu ku tunggu
Lontaran suara dari bibirmu
Memecah hening taman
Taman syurgawi
Pada sebuah hati yg sepi
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penwar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg meniti hidup ku
Doa By Harmoni
Tuhan ku
Dlm termangu
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Tuhan ku
Cahaya Mu
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Tuhan ku
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Tuhan ku
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
Nasyid By Hidayah
Kepada Mu Ilahi
Yg Maha Agung Yg Maha Suci
Ku pohon perlindungan
Dan keampunanMu
Pada setiap sholat
Ku lafazkan doa & pujian
Kukuhkanlah taqwaku & keimanan
Semoga diriku diselamatkan
Dari segala bencana
Limpahilah diriku dgn sinar penuh kemuliaan
Agar tidak digoda syaitan
Yg sungguh durjana peruntuh akhlak
Inilah doa seorang insan
Mohon perlindungan
The Reason
Hoobastank
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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