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My dearest friends & fellow bloggers,
Thanks for the messages. I'm sorry that I've not been leaving any messages to you. It's still hard for me, but I guess some things are better left unsaid or unwritten. It's too heart wrenching on my part. Today I decide to write again, trying to write about life....the positive side of life..........
D,
So much has happened since foster mom passed away. Countless of blessings despite the emotional turmoil that I face everyday. I miss her....I've never missed her like how I miss her now...... it's painful, it's hard to let go. Don't get me wrong. I do laugh out loud, I don't brood all day long but somehow, I feel lonely, empty. Those moments with her screened before my eyes now & then. I keep telling myself the things that happened are fated to be, I can't blame myself or anyone. I just have to keep her in my prayers. May Allah bless her soul. Amin, Insya'Allah.
The opportunity to spend a several hours with my old friends were indeed a dream come true. Masya'Allah. Too many pleasant encounters that we shared. Yes, I love the girls, sometimes I wish we're all staying in this little island so we won't miss each other so much. This year's gathering, we managed to find our lost friends, Alhamdulillah. We're still searching........The time spent with Pai was so short but oh so sweet......as I'm writing, I'm holding back the tears. My heart just swells with love. I never thought that I can feel the love among friends. May Allah bless you, dear sisters.
AT......what can I say. MIL said this to me......ini bukan kawan, ini sahabat....kawan boleh jadi lawan, tapi sahabat kekal ke akhir hayat. Sedangkan orang luar dapat merasakan keistimewaannya ukhuwah di antara kami. I don't need to go further. Siti Mariam.....I see her being there for me each time I'm facing musibah. I see her cheering for me when I'm blessed with good things Allah gives me. Her words of wisdom shines my world. Not forgetting AZ...I appreciate her being there for me. May Allah bless you & reward you more goodness than the good deeds you've done for me.
Of course.....there are many others whom I call my sisters although we've only known each other in a short time. During the musibah these are the group of people who extend their support for me. May Allah bless all of you, fellow sisters/bloggers.
Foster dad & I are reunited again. I feel bad for not being able to look after him like the way he cared for me. He's the man whom I call father...I guess I'm the person he calls child. Although we're separated by the causeway, I'm sure we won't lose each other again. May Allah cares for him like the way he protected me when I was child.
My rock, Fidel. He keeps shining for me in those dark moments. I never thought he could & would stretch to the maximum for me. At times, I feel ashamed to ask him for a helping hand. I hate being helpless. But then again, I realise, that's what he wants. To be needed, to be there for me. Yeah, yeah.......he's always calling himself Hero Of The World. So there, I let him be the HERO.....but only in MY WORLD. I'm amazed to see the positive aura that surrounds him. He keeps shining. Alhamdulillah. May Allah bless him & keep him on the right path.
Masya'Allah, tak ku sangka rahmat melimpah ruah di sebalik musibah yg berlaku, Alhamdulillah. Ini lagi menguatkan semangat ku utk melalui hari-hari tua ku ke jalan yg Allah redhai. Semoga Allah sentiasa berada di sisi ku & membuka ruang yg luas ke jalan yg benar, Amin, Insya'Allah.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 21:14 #
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PINKIE HEARS |
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PINKIE SHARES |
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I'tiraf
Wahai Tuhan
Ku tak layak
Ke SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula
Aku sanggup
Ke NerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku
Terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya
Engkaulah Pengampun
Dosa-dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku
Bagaikan pepasir
Di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu
Ampunkan daku
Oh Tuhanku
Wahai Tuhan
Selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala
Kejahatan & kecelakaan
Kami takut
Kami harap
KepadaMu
Suburkanlah
Cinta kami
Kepada Mu
Kamilah hamba
Yg mengharap
Belas dariMU
Penantian By Harmoni
Berapa lama mesti ku nanti
Sinar cahaya mata mu
Gemerlap bagai bintang
Menghiasi malam
Malam yg menutup diriku
Berapa lama perlu ku tunggu
Lontaran suara dari bibirmu
Memecah hening taman
Taman syurgawi
Pada sebuah hati yg sepi
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penwar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg meniti hidup ku
Doa By Harmoni
Tuhan ku
Dlm termangu
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Tuhan ku
Cahaya Mu
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Tuhan ku
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Tuhan ku
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
Nasyid By Hidayah
Kepada Mu Ilahi
Yg Maha Agung Yg Maha Suci
Ku pohon perlindungan
Dan keampunanMu
Pada setiap sholat
Ku lafazkan doa & pujian
Kukuhkanlah taqwaku & keimanan
Semoga diriku diselamatkan
Dari segala bencana
Limpahilah diriku dgn sinar penuh kemuliaan
Agar tidak digoda syaitan
Yg sungguh durjana peruntuh akhlak
Inilah doa seorang insan
Mohon perlindungan
The Reason
Hoobastank
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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