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Syawal |
D,
Ku sambut Syawal dgn penuh keinsafan. Hati ini diselubungi kesayuan walaupun pada zahirnya aku menunjukkan kegembiraan. Terubat rindu bila aku menalipon Ju & Pai. Mereka agak terperanjat mendengar suara ku. Terasa hati mereka tertusuk kepiluan ketika berbicara dgn ku. Maklumlah orang jauh di rantauan.
Namun yg ku rindui tidak dapat ku tatap, peluk, cium. Jasadnya sudah tiada lagi. Kadangkala terbayang wajahnya, senyumannya. Terasa pelukan & ciumannya. Seringkali ku diselubungi kekesalan. Hanya doa yg mampu ku panjatkan utknya. Semoga Allah merahmati rohmu, Mak.
Mama sungguh besar jasamu
Tak ternilai harta dunia
Doa restu ku pohonkan
Semoga Mama bahgia.......
Mama aku telah dewasa
Tentang diriku usahlah bimbang
Ingin berbakti membalas jasa
Mama oh Mama ku sayang.........
Namun yg hidup harus terus mengharungi hari-hari yg dipinjamkan utknya. Alhamdulillah, Bapak bersama kami tahun ini. Air mukanya sayu apabila kami terpaksa berpisah pada senja Syawal pertama. Semoga Allah memberinya ganjaran yg tinggi di atas segala pengorbanannya membesarkan aku. Tak ku sangka bapa kandungku ditimpa musibah. Dia terbaring, tidak dapat bergerak seperti dulu. Dia menangis melihat kami semua berkumpul mengelilinginya. Sesungguhnya tahun ini adalah tahun kesedihan bagiku. Tapi, aku bersyukur Allah memberiku cahaya kegembiraan dapat memohon maaf dgn ibu & ibu mertuaku. Aku diberi kesempatan bertemu keluarga suamiku utk bermaafan, bertemu dgn orang-orang yg istimewa dlm hidupku - Mak Jah, Mak Kiah - yg sekarang meniti usia senja mereka bersama keluarga masing-masing. Masih terasa kehangatan pelukan mereka, ciuman mereka dipipiku.
Ketawa derai anak-anak menyinari suasana Aidilfitri. Kesyahduan berlutut di hadapan suami memohon keampunan menyedarkanku segala kepincanganku sebagai isteri & ibu. Terbayang segala pengorbanannya utk kesejahteraan kami sekeluarga.
Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku sungguh kerdil & tidak bermaya. Lindungilah kami dari segala bahaya, tunjukkanlah kami ke jln yg benar. Jgnlah kami lalai mengerjakan suruhanMu. Rahmatilah kami di dunia & akhirat. Jauhkanlah kami dari azab siksa kubur & api neraka. Jadikanlah kami di antara umat yg masuk ke Syurga. Amin.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 16:53 #
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004 | |
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By Barry Manilow.... |
We'll meet again
Don't know where
Don't know when
But I know we'll meet again
Some sunny day........
Syawal is just around the corner.
To all fellow muslimahs,
Selamat menyambut Aidilfitri. Sepuluh jari ku susun memohon maaf zahir & batin. Thank you so much for your moral support & thoughts towards me. Ku panjatkan doa semoga anda sekalian dirahmati Allah. Insya'Allah kita bertemu lagi.
Salam ukhuwah,
PinkieCutePie @ MerahjambuKenitPai.
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 06:56 #
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Wednesday, November 03, 2004 | |
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D,
While waiting for the cookies to cool, I squeeze some time to write.
Fidel left in for Xiamen after Subuh prayers on the 24th October. It was Iz's birthday, too. We celebrated the evening before. Iz is proud whenever he stands next to me as he sees hmself growing taller as the days goes by. Yeah, soon, I'm going to be the dwarf, here. Each time I look at him when he's not looking, I'm just beaming with tears of joy. My only wish is that I'm more open to show affection towards him. I hope he feels my love for him through my gestures.
Somehow, I feel it was a long week. I felt miserable, maybe the thought of him being away during the fasting month. But when he returned, my life has been busy. Foster dad finally spent 2 nights with us, we went to Aunt Ley's place for iftar gathering & for now, I'm stuck at home baking.
While Fidel was away, I managed to meet up with Az. We went to Geylang to buy flowers. She couldn't believe it that I spent quite a sum on the flowers. Geez, I'm so clueless about flower arrangement!!! She followed me home & whipped up 4 arrangements for me in 2 hrs!!!!! So unbelievable. I wish she would take this up as a career at home. She's got huge talent in this field.
To my fellow friends, thanks for tagging & messages. I'm sorry for not leaving any messages to you. Hopefully, I'll come back to blog after Aidilfitri, or may be, not. I guess I'm getting old for this stuff. Time is getting shorter & there are too many things undone. The world is getting older. The earth is in such a sad state. I wish people will come together & work towards peace. Hm....so happen, the Americans are voting for a President. Can the next President do the right thing & stop the unnecessary abuse? All I know is that I want Bush out, although I'm not sure if Kerry is a better President. Ah well, till we meet again........wa ai koon liao!!!!
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posted by pinkiecutepie # 01:30 #
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PINKIE HEARS |
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PINKIE SHARES |
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I'tiraf
Wahai Tuhan
Ku tak layak
Ke SyurgaMu
Namun tak pula
Aku sanggup
Ke NerakaMu
Ampunkan dosaku
Terimalah taubatku
Sesungguhnya
Engkaulah Pengampun
Dosa-dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku
Bagaikan pepasir
Di pantai
Dengan rahmatMu
Ampunkan daku
Oh Tuhanku
Wahai Tuhan
Selamatkan kami ini
Dari segala
Kejahatan & kecelakaan
Kami takut
Kami harap
KepadaMu
Suburkanlah
Cinta kami
Kepada Mu
Kamilah hamba
Yg mengharap
Belas dariMU
Penantian By Harmoni
Berapa lama mesti ku nanti
Sinar cahaya mata mu
Gemerlap bagai bintang
Menghiasi malam
Malam yg menutup diriku
Berapa lama perlu ku tunggu
Lontaran suara dari bibirmu
Memecah hening taman
Taman syurgawi
Pada sebuah hati yg sepi
Penantian suatu siksa
Yg tidak tertanggung
Oleh tubuh ku yg kering & layu
Kepastian suatu penwar
Dlm suka & duka
Yg meniti hidup ku
Doa By Harmoni
Tuhan ku
Dlm termangu
Ku sebut nama Mu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Mu penuh seluruh
Tuhan ku
Cahaya Mu
Panas suci bagai kerdip lilin
Di kelam sunyi
Tuhan ku
Aku hilang bentuk
Kembara di negeri asing
Tuhan ku
Pintu Mu ku ketuk
Aku tak bisa berpaling
Nasyid By Hidayah
Kepada Mu Ilahi
Yg Maha Agung Yg Maha Suci
Ku pohon perlindungan
Dan keampunanMu
Pada setiap sholat
Ku lafazkan doa & pujian
Kukuhkanlah taqwaku & keimanan
Semoga diriku diselamatkan
Dari segala bencana
Limpahilah diriku dgn sinar penuh kemuliaan
Agar tidak digoda syaitan
Yg sungguh durjana peruntuh akhlak
Inilah doa seorang insan
Mohon perlindungan
The Reason
Hoobastank
The Reason
I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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